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by newmoon7777

by newmoon7777

This one is about my feelings . I guess that maybe I always feel like I'm a bother to everyone and everything and I feel like I shouldn't be around because maybe I'm not important or needed and I hate feeling that way so I basically keep to myself and all of my stupid problems and the only way I can express myself is if I'm really sad or on paper.I want to say so many things but at the same time I don;t want to hurt anyone's feelings or ruin anything .

But I try so hard to give as much ads a person possibly could and do as much , but it never seems to be enough for anyone . I'm just doing things for no reason andI feel like an unwanted pest and this feeling is so horrible because I know that no matter h0ow hard I try , or what I do, I'll never be able to help or do anything that matters. And basically , I'm lost because nothing I do will ever be good enough for anyone .

And basically , I can't really live life like this anymore . I can't always second guess if someone loves me and I can't always feel like a mistake or a second choice because no one realizes that some of the things they say and do hurt. I mean everyone can have a bit of a selfish streak in their hearts, but it seems like people forget that others have feelings

And I never said I wanted anything to be like this , I'm constantly trying to fix it and failing .And I am starting to become really tired of faking a smile and saying everything is okay . It's such an old routine that I've learned to hate .

I'm sorry I just released a quarter of my stress into this. Bye for now.