Diary Of A Suicidal Angel |Destiel|

Chapter seven: I'm not good at lying

Three months after moving into the bunker.
Dear Diary,
It's almost three. I can't wait to see Dean.

I wait for Dean by the front of the hospital.

When I hear the sound of the Impala, I smile.
Dean parks close by, then got out of the car.
Taking a deep breath, I walk towards him.
"Hey, Cas!" He pulls me into a bone crushing hug when I reach him.
"Hello, Dean." I hug him back.
Dean opens the passenger door for me once he stops accidentally crushing me. Getting in, I flash him a grin.
He gets in on the driver's side and we both put our seatbelts on.

"So what'd the doc say?" Dean asks once we were on a car-less road.
"That I was fine." I lie.
I'm not good at lying, because Dean can tell that I did. If you can fool Dean Winchester, you can fool anybody.
"You're lyin', Cas." His voice was full of hurt.
"Please, Cas." He adds a minute later.
I can't tell him. Looking out of the window, I watch the trees go by in a blur.
I'm too in love with him to want to cause him pain.
But not telling him will hurt him just as bad.
"Cas."
Maybe he's just pretending so I'll be happy.
"Cas."
Does he really love me?
"Cas."
He can have anyone he wanted.
Before I know it, Dean stops the car on the side of the road.

"What? Dean!" I look over at him. I'm in tears and so is he.
What does it mean when Dean Winchester actually cries?
"Please tell me. Look, I love you." I hear him say.
"Dean, I have leukemia."

The look on his face told me that he felt like his whole world had stopped.

"No no no no. Cas, you have to get treated. Did the doctor mention any treatments? Did you say you wanted treatment?" Dean still had a glimmer of hope. Hope I probably was going to ruin...
I sigh.
"Yes and no. Dean, I don't want to be treated."
Suddenly, he was angry.
"No, you have to. Damn it, Cas! You're not dying."
"Fine, but on one condition."
"Anything."
"You give me aspirin." I halfway joked.
Dean nods his head.
"That I can do."

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Sam mentioned that the day after tomorrow is Valentine's day and that he'd be with Gabriel. Apparently they're a thing now. I'm glad Sam found someone. After Kevin, I didn't think he'd fall in love again. Kevin's death almost sent Sam over the edge. Literally and figuratively.

Since I've been with Dean most of the day and will be with him tomorrow and Valentine's day, I had Gabe pick up my gift for Dean.