Every night, I get to text my crush, Larx. He know that I like him and I'm hoping that he will like me too so in that way.. I can totally forget because the truth is I'm just using him to buy some time then delete my feelings for my real crush. Larx and I started texting during the vacation and we've become close and flirty with each other but when we're in school... he don't talk to me at all! Yes! Not even a single "hello". I asked him why and he said that he was just so shy. I really wonder why.
I told my best friend about my feelings for Larx and how the two of us are getting along lately and Jill became happy and excited for me.
"Oh, Mincy I'm getting excited with you two! I can't wait for the two of you to talk personally!" Jill said.
My best friend's so weird but I like and love her so much more than any of my other friends and I couldn't afford to lose her because if love is lost...she will be there for me, she's there to catch me.
I remember the time when my first love told me that he loves another girl, I called Jill, I ran to her and that's when I first cried to her and got hurt.
"Hello,Jill? *sniff*"
"what's up, Mincy? why're you crying?" Jill asked me.
"Arjen!!! *sniff*
"what's with Arjen??!" she asked.
"Arjen is already in love with Mina! I don't stand a chance on him anymore!" I cried.
"It's ok. Don't cry. Crying will make you ugly, I swear!" she replied.
I managed a smile and to laugh softly on the phone.
"But it hurts! I love him, sis..." I cried again.
"Ok, I'll write you a letter." she answered.
"awwe. Thank you, Jill." I happily replied.
The next day, a letter was handed to me by Matrix. I got excited and opened it. It has a lot of message that strucked me. Here are some...
"One day, you're going to meet a man whose will can't be bent to suit your purposes. And when that happens, you'll fall in love with him"
"When you love someone, and they break your heart, don't give up on love. Have FAITH, RESTART, HOLD ON."
"We're gonna find someone someday, who might actually treat us well." that's a lyrics from Taylor Swift's song.
I stopped crying and being lonely after reading it. I have to move-on because past is past!
One school morning, when the school's atmosphere is just too bad and everyone's so busy for the exam, I saw Jill in a different aura of smile after visting the chapel so I asked her.
"What's with the smile, Jill?"
"My crush stood beside me!" she said happily.
"where, Jill? Ha-ha!"
"At the chapel! she exclaimed.
Jill is blushing with excitement and she can't stop her childish laugh while thinking about it. I'm happy for her because with that, she'll be inspired to pass our exams.
But then again...in love or crush life it's not always rainbows and butterflies. Not all situations in life would be favorable to us and would be according to our plans.
"My crush isn't talking to me anymore." Jill complained.
"Ha-ha! Maybe he's just too shy"
I can see that she's irritated but Jill is also a Peter Pan Fan, she loves to "THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS" so she doesn't let herself get too affected by the negativities that strikes our fragile teenage hearts.
Hmm... I guess I'm just going to keep my feelings to myself again. You readers must await what will happen next to us. If Jill would know everything or not and who among us will win our crush's heart.
