One night, Larx and I had a fight because I've realized that he is just using me and worst? All this time he was just pretending! so much for my happy ending! Asking me of what I feel for him. Hmph! I really thought he is the one.
I cried though what I feel for him was fake because I really expected that my problem with love will be solved if I will love another guy to forget him! Guess I'd just sleep this away...
It's a pleasant day in school. I saw Fiona coming my way so I greeted her happily.
"yow, Fiona! How're you doing?" I greeted.
"Mincy! you look so..umm..." she answered.
"I look what? Is there something on my face?" I asked.
"No! no! you look..I don't know.. different??" she replied.
"eh? what do you mean?" i asked again.
"do you have problem? You can tell me." she offered.
I'm about to answer when the bell made a noise.
"It's already time! Let's go." Fiona said.
We headed down the stairs. I would really, really want to tell Fiona everything! About how I'm feeling today and ask her for some help with heartaches.
I saw Renbert in front of me. He was standing there and asking me for an index card so I gave him one. The way he said the word "thank you" is just so firing and energizing. I'd give a bunch of my index card just for that smile and heart skipping words.
"Mincy! He's so cool!" Jill suddenly said.
"oh! you're there! why? what did he do?" I asked.
"He just said, "poor you. Come on I'll help you find the pages that you need to study" Jill answered.
"Lucky one, Jill!" I said.
Now, I really need to see Fiona! I can't take this anymore. I need someone to listen to me, I want to burst out everything to Fiona when we talk. I walked silently in a garden-like place in the school and sat there for a while...
"Mincy! I know you're having a problem now...share it to me." Fiona said.
"Thanks, Fiona. It's just that... My feelings for Renbert is haunting me again! You know I've liked him the first time I saw him, right? But Jill likes him too! what to do, men?" I blurted.
"Chill out. You don't have to take all the pain, Mincy. The two of you are best friends so she has the right to know. If she's a real friend... she'd understand that." Fiona explained.
"I really have to tell?! but......."
"Yes! Don't keep everything on your own." Fiona interrupted.
"I can't take to see her in pain again! So I'll be the one to sacrifice"
"Don't be a masochist, it's so unbecoming you. where's the hard core, Mincy that I know, huh?" Fiona said.
"I'm so sorry but she's my weakness"
"No! Tell her everything! If the two of you are BFFs, she must know the truth." Fiona answered.
"But! Arrgghh! I don't know! I guess I'm keeping this as a secret."
"Best friends tell their secrets to one another! you must tell her...ALL." Fiona blurted.
"I'm scared"
"You can do that. We're here...Me, Crim, Zary, Roc, Cina and Jill!" Fiona cheered.
"Yeah! I got you, guys..."
"That's the spirit!" Fiona said.
I smiled with what she said but I'm still so confused and worried. I'm scared of the outcome besides Jill is so hard to approach because of her "always" happy nature but I think Fiona's right... I have to tell her but I think Fiona's wrong too! I'm sure Jill will feel sad again if she would know..hmm.. I really don't know...what her reactions will be...
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Tomorrow I will decided and tomorrow you'll know what really happened. I will add another chapter...as soon as possible. Thank you supporters !
