* mention of self harm and suicide attempt*
*Phils Pov*
I wake up to the sound of my phone going off, I looked at the clock *3:55am*, who would be messaging me at this time in the morning, I pick me phone up and see it's a kik message from that emokid.
Emokid:-hi Phil Im the emo kid at school who self harms and attempted suicide twice, I've been in love with you since year 7 and your too blind to see, my name is Daniel James Howell and right know I don't see a point in living, good bye Philip Michael Lester, I love you my sunshine xx
Wait I don't think he was meant to send that, wait what does he mean with goodbye, wait he wouldn't, I start to panic
Plantboy:- wait Dan
Plantboy:- Dan please answer me
Plantboy:- Dan please don't do anything stupid??
Plantboy:- DANIEL PLEASE, I LOVE YOU DAN, IVE LOVE YOU SINCE FOREVER PLEASE DONT DO ANYTHING STUPID.
Opps looks like "emokid" has turn off/disconnected his phone we will sent this messages when it's comes back on
I start to panic more when I seen that message ,I need to go to his house but wait I don't know where he lives, wait think Phil, think back to when you were sent out to stalk him to find out about him for your "friends", I think long and hard and then I remember, I quickly grab my shoes and car keys and make my way to his house I get there and I see the bathroom light on, oh god no, I quickly run to where the bathroom window was I thank god there was a tree there, the window was open a bit, so I climbed the tree and open the window but what I seen wasn't what I wanted to see,I seen Dan lying on the floor in a pool of his own blood and an empty bottle of pills next to him with a note in his hand, I quickly phones 999 and jump through the window, I knew his parents wasn't there cause there were on a business trip for the next 4 weeks, as I jump through the window I check to see if he was still alive, barley but he was still here I quickly grab the letter before running and opening the front door for the ambulance people they run upstairs and to the bathroom and I stayed downstairs, looking at myself in the mirror I was coved in Dan's blood, I can't believe he did this, why didn't he tell me who he was , I wouldn't have stopped talking to him, secretly I'm in love with him. I was pulled from my thought when someone tapped my shoulder.i turn to see them taking Dan out, I didn't know what to do so I just stood there and watched them leave. I sat on the sofa and held the letter.
"I'm sorry" was written on the found of it. I opened it and started to read it .
Dear who ever is reading this
If you found this that means I'm dead but don't worry I'm happy for once in my life.
Mam and dad
I'm sorry I wasn't the son you wanted,I'm sorry I wasn't smart, I'm sorry I wasn't good looking and brought girls home, in fact I was gay, yes I like boys, especially this one boy called Phil.im sorry if you found me but then again you wouldn't care you leave on "business trips" and leave me for week alone with my mind, but I forgive you, I love u both and I'm sorry.
Phil Lester
I doubt you will read this coz you don't give a shit about me but I love you Phil, I've love you from the moment I saw you in year 7 , your jet black hair that was styled opposite to mine, those blue blue eyes that you could get lost in everytime you looked in to them, your smile which could bright up a whole world and change someone's mood with it, I forgive you for the name calling and everything over the years, I don't blame you at all, I love you Phil you kept me going for so long and then when I got your kik I thought I could talk to you without you knowing who I was, but then I messed up and told you who I was and then I knew you would go tell everyone I don't blame you, who would want to talk to an emokid who self harms and attempts suicide, I'm nothing but a worthless piece of shit and I deserve to die, I'm sorry Phil I'm sorry it had to end like this but I've lasted 3 years and I can't take it anymore coz I know u would never love a gay emo fag like me.
I love you Philip Michael Lester
Goodbye Phil
Love
Dan xx
Oh Dan, only if you knew how much I loved u from the first day too, i finished and realised I was crying and got up and ran to my car and went to the hospital.
How could I have been so blind all this time.
I love you Daniel James Howell
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