Life in the rainbow

C-lo

I can't tell my mom.

My mom thinks I'm a confused person and that everyone is either straight or gay. That's not true. For me? I'm an abrosexual. Don't know what that means? That means I fluctuate between sexualities. In the past I've called myself bi, lesbian, pan, and poly all in the same week. The truth is that I'm abro. And that's what I identify as.

I like mostly girls. That's how this all started.

In fifth grade I began to question my sexuality. I didn't tell anyone until the seventh grade. The only reason why I told was because I actually had a crush on another girl. Her name was Blythe.

It was only a certain amount of time before my mom saw my Instagram and found out herself.

She and I had gotten into a huge fight over sexuality. She said she didn't think I was gay and that I was just confused.

The truth is I knew it was true.

My sister also said it was just a phase. I don't think phases usually last through your childhood and into your teen years.

Eventually I saw my mom in person. She stayed calm for two days. Then havoc was wreaked.

She yelled at me. She even slapped me across the face, causing my head to hit a wall. After that I was traumatized.

Ever since I have been afraid.

I was so proud of it. I even instantly came out of the closet. I was only in the closet for a week! But my mom turned my thunder against me.

Ever since, I haven't been able to talk to my mom about feelings without her going completely berserk. It's like I'm in the closet with her.

Everyone else knows.

But my mom denies it.

My friends think my parents are both super accepting. My dad and stepmom are. I can talk to them about any relationship I have.

But my mom?

Nope.

Up to this day it's been sad that I can't freak out to her about something. I'm all alone on that for a while until I talk to my dad.

That's the worst part. That I have no voice in half my family.

But I know that I am valid.

And that I am strong.

And that I'm proud of who I am.

That was my true story. All of this is 100% true in what has happened with me. But know that you are valid. You have a voice. Be you. Be proud of you. And follow that beating heart of yours.

-Reese