Isn't It Strange (Dolan Twin Fanfic)

Chapter 9

I forgot to mention something about myself, I have these days and this thing which I don't really know what it is, but I feel sad for no reason, i just all of a sudden changes from happy to sad. And I don't know why.

Gran used to say "we all have those days cupcake" and I get that, but I have 'one of those days' oh so very often. And I dare say it's annoying and it hurts.

When I have one of these days I constantly think of negative things, I don't want to be around people and I cry A LOT!

At first I thought, Indira your being silly it hormones or your period, but then they became more frequent and more people noticed.

And today is one of those days.

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My alarm clock rang at 8:30am to wake me up. But I didn't move, my body hurt and I felt miserable, I just wanted to sleep, I wanted the pain inside me to go away. It was an annoying pain.

It was like something was bothering me and I didn't know what, it felt like I had just been heartbroken. You know that awkward feeling you get? Well I have that.

Around 9:00am I slowly dragged my heavy body down stairs for any food that wasn't healthy. All the girls were at work by now so it was just me, my feelings and all the chocolate in the pantry.

I sat on the sofa and was picking a movie when my phone rang, it was Ethan.

"Hello?" I questioned
"Hey Indira it's Grayson, my phone went flat so I'm using Ethans, I was wondering if you wanna hang out?" He asked after replying to my rhetorical question.
"Umm, er, sorry I'm not feeling to great" I lied, how was I supposed to tell him what was going on? I've never told anyone. And I wasn't about to. No one knew and I wanted to keep it that way.

"Are you alright? Want me to come over to look after you?" He asked ever so kindly.
"I'm fine no need to worry" did I seriously just babble again?

"You don't sound yourself I'll come around" I heard the worry in his tone.

"NO! You can't and you won't just leave me alone!" I snapped whilst hanging up.

Why? Why did I have to do it to the guy I liked? The one person who might actually help me through this? I am so friken stupid!!!!!!

I ran up to my room, locked the door and then hid in the smallest corner of my closet after locking that door as well. This was like my routine of when I have one of these days. Because after all no one but me goes in my closet.

When people ask about it I say i'm in the shower or something like that. So that they won't ask any more questions that I won't be able to answer.

Lying won't help, I know but it's just that I'm usually such a strong, loud and outgoing person and I hate how messed up I look and feel on 'one of these days' so I wouldn't blame others if they did too.

I felt worse for what I said to Grayson. Wayy worse

Me: Sorry....

Grayson:) your not ok are u?

Me: err no... but please don't worry and please don't come over I can handle it.

Grayson:) it's alright I get it. Feel better soon and if you ever need to talk let me know xox

Holy crab cakes. I think he just cured me. My butterflies are having a huge rave party inside me and my head is running laps of an athletics track.

That simple 'xox' have made me feel so happy and free. Wow!

I slid out of my closet and into the shower in a heart beat. what's going on? I am I messed up completely?

{A.N}
Soo this chapter is a bit longer, I just wanted to add a twist, because i though you guys were getting bored. And please vote and comment. I need all the help I can get.

Thank youuuu

Peace xx