Like We Used To (Book 1)

10. What Seemed Like A Good Idea...

Jimmy's POV

As soon as I heard her voice I smiled.

I walked to the edge of the bed and smiled down at Alisha. I was completely broken inside but I knew that I had to be strong for her because Joel wasn't here.

"Jimmy?"

"Yeah?"I hoped she wasn't going to ask me about Joel because honestly I didn't know what to say. He should be here and we all knew it, but there was nothing we could do.

"I'm sorry."

What?

"Ali, there is no reason for you to be sorry."

She sighed, "Yes there is. I know that you are blaming yourself for everything. I can see it in your eyes. But this is not your fault. I rather it be me here in this situation then you."

"Look Alisha, I'm the big brother and I would do anything to protect you. Even if that would of meant me being in the hospital for a few days."

Joel's POV

As I made my way to the hospital with Benj I couldn't help thinking about how Alisha was feeling right now. I should of been by her side through all of this.

The hospital came into view and my heart was racing. I didn't know what state she was in or if she was even awake.

I walked into the lobby with Benji right behind me and saw everyone a little more relaxed then when I was here earlier.

Matt looked up, "Thank God you're back. Jimmy and Mandy are still with Alisha. She's awake now and the doctor told us she is doing ok. I figured you would want to be alone with her so I told everyone to wait here until you got here."

I nodded and walked to her room.

I hesitated before knocking. My head was spinning and my stomach was in knots, all I could think about was that yesterday was supposed to be the best day of mine and Alisha's life and in a second it was all ruined. I hated Adrian for what he did, but I couldn't help but blame myself for all of this because if I wouldn't of come back to Maryland Alisha wouldn't be in this situation. She would be happy with Adrian and he would have never tried to hurt anyone. Especially not Alisha.

When I finally had the guts to knock Jimmy walked out. He pushed me out of the way.

"Dude where the hell have you been?!" Jimmy was definitely pissed. I couldn't blame him, I knew I was in the wrong.

"Jimmy I had to clear my head. I know that I should have been here. Alisha needed me and I was selfish. I'm sorry for that, but I need to see her."

"No Joel! There is no fucking way I am going to let you in there! You fucked up big time bro!"

I stayed quiet while Jimmy paced back and forth in front of Alisha's room. He stopped right infront of me, and for a second I thought he was going to beat the shit out of me. His eyes were full of anger.

"You know something?" I was about to answer no, but he kept talking, "I thought it would have been a good idea for you and Alisha to get back together beause it was obvious you still loved each other, but I also made a promise to Alisha and to myself the first time you broke her heart back when Good Charlotte was just starting out and A7X was only a dream. I promised her that I would never let anyone hurt her again. I was going to protect her from any dumbass who tried hurting her after what you did and I broke that promise Joel! Don't you get how it makes me feel to see my little sister laying in a hospital bed?!"

"Jimmy I'm sorry." Those were the only words I could come up with. The hurt in Jimmy's eyes showed me that there was nothing else I could say or do.