AFFAIRS : one time can be accident, twice can mistake, three times IT'S HABBIT my habbit was my addition it's already effect at the early stage of my marriage with Chris brown i feel sorry for him im sorry that i lead this on. That night i spent with Chris Pine i spent the night i felt my body craving more for him so i settled my desire with him i was wrong how i treated Chris brown i don't blame how he feels about me or this marriage in the end i only prooved are parents right we thought we can make it right by being together after all this time. We been secretly hooking up together for a while but i couldn't live like this anymore i thought i cheated on Chris brown because i was bored sexually needed something to fulfill but now im getting involved where it's hurting me mentally it's best i let him go because he deserves better at this point i became bad for him. One night i came to Chris Brown we just sit and talk about him being gone a lot i open up to him how i been having a affair it's still continously still going on once i said that he over reacted big time. CHRIS was yelling at me throwing things he had catch his self we was arguing it wasn't pretty. But he didn't put his hands on me if that's what your thinking he he just was angry as hell at me, he wouldn't suspect me because i love him too much and i still do but Chris Pine starting to slowly grow on me i can't save this marriage because i would go and continue fucking Chris pine secretly we had a thing for each other in the beginning i would shake it off to stay focus but now truth is out how i feel. I told him because i couldn't hide no more it's for the best.
Next day chris brown files for divorce he gives me a otematem on me sign the papers or i move out that night he wouldn't sleep with me the next day he couldn't looked at me i hurt him so much i hurt myself to the core because i realize im loosing him. Nothing much i can do to save or stop us from not being together i felt a part of me was saving to be with Chris Pine. I only been married to Chris brown for 3 years we haven't had a chance to have kids i thought we could do better than this but i just couldn't hold back anymore. The divorce will be due in 2 weeks or so until then i moved out of are house in Arizona where we settled for last couple of years i moved into a complex apartment where i live through out my college years. Its nice might be small to others but it's just me i love living here because it helps me clear my head plus i love small houses built not too huge or not too small i need decide what ima do about Chris Pine. We still fuck from time to time but carry on like a couple like were dating we haven't confirm being together i guess we are in my mind i haven't make that up he's been so nice to me actually been supporting me through the whole thing. But we were good friends so a couple of days go by and finally the divorce came i was so sad and angry with myself i didn't want to go through this the worse part im still clinging on to Chris pine but I'll never get over Chris brown but when im with him i forget about him. I had all camouflage outfit and gold acessories with boots or heels? The last thing i remember Chris brown was wearing a black timbs with short geans, with black shirt and qhite sequence with a black snapback and gold jewelry he always smells good. Sometimes his smells trigger my memory like food. Im truly going to miss him i had to come in the room with a straight face but when we sat down and started talking they break out the paper i couldn't fake it i really wanted to scream and shout: DON'T LET ME GO, I LOVE YOU ,I DON'T WANT A DIVORECE. Chris Brown was the first to sign then it was my turn i slowly cried as i signed the paper i remain helpless i play my role now im getting what i deserve i was so hurt that day. I walk out of the room soon as i was done signing those papers i was upset the things Chris brown said to me the night before it hurt my feelings he knew my weaknesses we knew each other for 9 years i wasn't go let go of that moment easily that day i went home and cried and pack up things remind me of the marriage kept safe in storage room. I might be rich but i do believe in saving even memories. I went the whole day not talking anybody , i just kept everything to myself that day. The next day i heard from Chris pine i relationship didn't change it made us closer over time we got married to each other it only took us 6 months. Till i finally realize him one point he lead me on we've been off and on at some point i only broke up with him because i thought it was best i was running away lowkey then he came back for i couldn't resist i remember the day we had a disagreement in the gym that got us back together. It was weird but it happened but im sort of glad it made me see who he was i think maybe it realize i can handle him are great friendship what made us close why he was able to be there for me after my divorce with Chris Brown. I know what your thinking isn't he the reason he cause my divorce that might be true in some way but it's not the fact that i don't want to believe it i just fall for him he might be what's best for me some things happen for a reason make you realize clarity of small things in life but since i risk my marriage i could be takiny a risk but im making it worth it. We only known each other 6 months we decided to get married all he want to do make me the happiest girl in the world. Soon later once we got married i got pregnant plus i did had baby fever but i never imagined having kids by my favorite actor or marry one i was a month pregnant when i married Chris Pine. Im total sure it's his because me and Chris brown danm sure wasn't having sex because he never was there to have sex when we try to i made some excuse and roll over i reveal i was cheating before things take a toll on that.
