By the time I got to the dining room everyone was there besides Ariana and Jai. I looked around the table and saw 3 seats open. I was about to go to the seat on the corner next to James but then Ariana and Jai swept in taking the two open seats by him. That meant that I had to sit next to Beau and I didn’t want to sit next to him, I rather sit on the floor but of course I had no choice.
I walked over and took my seat next to him, when I looked over at him I noticed he wasn’t paying attention to me but to another girl that was next to him. I didn’t even see her but part of me was happy she was here, but there was another part of me that was jealous. Like I wanted to take her by the hair and throw her out the door.
“Dinner is served.” Someone said before dinner was brought in to us. As it pilled in I could feel my stomach ache for the food. I didn’t realize how hungry I was until then. There was ham, salad, corn bread, corn, and green beans. I was about to get myself food when someone served me the food instead. Everyone got equal portions and everyone got a pretty big portion if I say so myself.
I waited until someone started eating so that I didn’t seem rude. Luckily Beau started eating right away which was queue for everyone to start eating. I didn’t mean to eat fast but I was so hungry, by the time I was half way done with my food I felt an elbow jam my arm and I looked over at the person next to me and I noticed it was Matt, my heart lightened a bit from joy but he looked scared and I could tell he wanted to me slow down my eating cause when I looked around everyone was staring at me. I looked back at Matt then back at my food and picked at it for the rest of the night feeling like a fat ass.
When everyone was done with their food we all sat around waiting for us to be excused or for desert, either one I’d be happy with but I was getting very annoyed because Beau and this girl were all over each other at this point and I thought it was just rude. I sat there for about 5 more minutes and I could feel the tension in the air and I was tired of it so I got up and started walking out. I was half way to the hallway when I heard Beau say “And where do you think you are going?”
“Back to my room” I said turning around to face him.
“I didn’t say you could leave” He said cooly.
“Yeah because you were all over that girl next to you” I said and immediately regretted. He turned from calm to out raged in a heartbeat and the girl didn’t look very happy either.
“You have no right to talk to me like that” He said trying to calm himself.
“You have no right to keep me here” I exclaimed
It took him a minute to say something back but what he said changed my attitude from annoyed to pissed off in a matter of milliseconds “I saved you”
“You saved me?” I snapped “You took me from my home, from my dog, to this place that I don’t want to be dragging two guys with that probably have nothing to do with anything. This isn’t being saved, this is being a prisoner.”
He looked infuriated at that point and maybe I should’ve kept my mouth shut but I didn’t “and I don’t know what you are trying to do by putting me in a nice room and sending someone to try and be my friend, I mean what’s next? Giving me a job as your gardener? Giving me your credit card to buy clothes? Ha. I am not your friend nor will I ever be. So either I am a prisoner or a house guest, but the thing is house guest feel wanted and I don’t feel wanted here. Now if you don’t mind I am leaving to my room so I can sleep and sleep and sleep.” I said as I left the room.
I got to my room and slammed the door shut behind me and collapsed in my bed. The moment I hit the bed the tears started to fall like rain on during a thunder storm.
I must have sat there for about 45 minutes when someone came and knocked on my door, I got up and answered the door to see Matt at the door. I looked up at him and he looked so concerned and scared. I wanted to wrap him up in my arms and tell him it was going to be okay. I wanted to say this long apology to him and tell him I had nothing to do with it but the only thing that came out was “I’m sorry.” And with that the tears started to fall once again. I felt my body get pulled into his and I wrapped my arms around him and let him hold me there as I cried.
We weren’t standing there long when I heard cough, I opened my eyes to see Beau at the end of the hallway staring at us. I quickly pulled away from Matt and straightened myself out.
He watched Matt carefully and I could see the hatred in his eyes. I looked to Matt and he was staring at Beau with a kind of scared but confident look in his eyes. He then looked down at me and walked away leaving me there with him.
I watched Matt walk to his room and close the door then it was just Beau and I. We kept eye contact for a couple seconds then he looked down at his feet. “We need to talk.” He said then turned and walked away.
