Midnights.

Just read this, ight?

people are so.. so fake. Like how when you met someone and you think, I'm gonna be friends with this person forever and it turns out they talk about you behind your back or that their friends said that they could make you fall in love with them or give up your innocence for a stupid bet.

people honestly infuriate me so much. Every single person I've come across is either an idiot; it's painful to be around them, an arrogant dickhead, over dramatic saps, or is just a plain asshole. And it sucks, it's sad. Society nowadays has put such a pressure on our generation to be what is portrayed as "badass" and "reckless".

Okay, like no. Being a "badass" is not disrespecting you're parents, doing drugs, drinking, having sex with anything that's got a dick/boobs. Etcetera. No, that makes you a disrespectful punk, drug attic, alcoholic fuckboy or girl. Being a badass is standing up for yourself and doing the right thing. That ladies and gents is a badass. Maybe add a leather jacket and some red lipstick for the affect idfk.

And I honestly just don't understand. I don't understand how people can just throw their lives away. I mean I understand that people sometimes they think they have nothing to live for or to lose like, are you fucking kidding me? What about your mom and dad who worked hard to get you into school, have clean clothes and a damn roof over your head and food in your stomach? What about your little sister who looks up to you to protect her or to someday have you teach her how to makeup on? Or make your older brother proud that his little squirt of a brother/sister accomplished something simple but amazing of just graduating high school? What about your Grandparents? Aunts, uncles, cousins?

What about yourself?

I know you're probably thinking, well I don't care about myself, I've got nothing to lose. You're are so damned and wrong. You have everything to live for. Maybe you lost someone you love or are abused by the people that are supposed to. Or you blame yourself that you couldn't save that person/people or that you're unwanted and a mistake. Well I'm here to tell you, you are not a mistake. You are not unwanted. You are not unloved. You are valued.

How can you not see how absolutely and amazingly incredible you are? God doesn't make mistakes, so hate to break it to you but you're fucking awesome, okay? Like so damn amazing it blows my mind. And no I'm not sugar coating all this, I mean it.

Get your head out of the dirt and do something with your life! You wanna do be a doctor? Lawyer, artist, actress, flower shop owner, etc? Then work your ass off and do it. Make them proud or prove them wrong when they said you'll never amount to anything.

Don't be reckless with your life, you get one not fifty. There's only so many times the ER doctors can bring you back from an overdose or that you were this👌🏻, this close to dying from alcohol poisoning. Don't damage your precious body with razor blades and cigarette burns. I'm not trying to tell you how to life your life, just be smart about your decisions for fucks sake.

I'm not saying that you can never drink or party or whatever just be wise about it, you know? Don't go and possibly fuck up the rest of your life, don't be reckless.

Time to talk about God, and no I'm not trying to push my religion in your face or anything, k? If you're not religious or don't care then scroll past this paragraph or two and not comment to me about it. But I'd advise you listen.

I'm a Christian, which means yes I believe in God and that Jesus died and rose on the third day etc etc. And that I pray for things and about things. One of the thing I pray for everyday is to know who my true friends are and who aren't. Because people can be so fake, like I said earlier. They'll be your friend maybe even best, they'll say they love you and all that blah blah. But when you're always and I mean ALWAYS there for them and their never there for you in the long run? Drop their sorry ass faster then naughty boys career. Because in the end, they'll probably screw you over. so save yourself and your time, move on.

And if you're that person who's being fake and talking behind his/her back about them; stop being an asshole, asshole. Grow the fuck up, for real. If you're just gonna be a persons friend so that you benefit from it? Don't. Be straight up, own up, and move on. Don't be a jerk babe, it's not cute.

And just because someone fucked you over doesn't mean everyone is like that, I sound hypocritical because I honestly hate people and being around people most of the time, but that's a different story.

You'll find love someday. You'll do great things in your career. You. will. be. happy. So get over yourself, look in the mirror, and smile. Because you're so amazing.

Sure you might be sad, or angry now but my phrase that I always say and live by is that, "Things don't always go planned, shit happens." But it's not the end of the world. You'll get through it, it'll be okay. I promise. "You can do ALL things, through Christ who strengthens you." -Philippians 4:13

So what we learned, let's see: Don't be fake, don't be reckless, don't be a jerk.

Also learned that who you are is amazing.

So, screw the stereotypes and society's idea of beauty, or badass and anything else. Don't let society define who you're supposed to be, you chose. But chose wisely, you only get so many chances. Be. Happy. Life is too short to hold in anger and sadness. Darling you can fly, so spread those wing and fucking soar as high as you can, you're worth it. Prove all those people wrong and do something amazing. Because baby, you can change the world. 

So now that my hands are cramping so bad I've spent an hour writing this and my battery is at 2%; I'm gonna finish this rant/advice thingy with a poem I wrote.

Be whatever you wanna be,

do what you wanna do.

Be who you really are,

no one can take that from you.

You are special in every way

so fuck the haters,

Have a nice day.

Cheers! 😝

Yours sincerely,

-C.