Midnights.

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So I went to my old dance school concert yesterday and I thought it was going to be so fun to see all my old friends that I haven't seen in three years, but it wasn't fun.. it was actually painful..

I danced for ten years having all those friends for ten years.. friends that I literally saw everyday except sunday. Dancing was the majority of my young life, and i've been homeschool since kindergarden and that was kind of my social life for the longest time. Aside from when i was little going to church that was it. Only two people from my martials arts class have stayed in touch with me and still hang out with me every-so-often, but thats it.. out of my probably 30 "friends'' two made an effort to still talk, hang out, and be friends with me. Thank you two boys for doing that, I appreciate it more than you know.

After going and seeing.. all thats changed, was honestly depressing. You may think its no big deal things change. I know things change, but you don't know how hard that was for me to sit there and watch.. I almost had to leave because I started to cry, but I sucked it up and stayed.

I tried to go and see them and say good job; you did great etc.. but they pretty much ignored me. The only person who actually came up to ME and hugged me and said she missed me was my karate instructor. Who I miss so damn much it's not even funny. Love you Sensi :)

Anyways but I've moved on, it was just different watching from the audience instead of on stage being the one dancing. But it's fine they moved on and so did I, it was just a different perspective. But it's alright, it doesn't matter.

I knew that I probably wasn't going to dance again, but I plan going back into karate. That was really fun!! Especially when i'm kicking ass the boys' asses ;P haha anyways I do love dancing, but since then i've had more time to do things, considering I was there six days of the week. I'm more into music and guitar, photography, drawing and editing, and most importantly writing. :)

I still dance around my room and practice karate on my punching bag etc.. But it's okay things change, so do people. I guess it doesn't matter, but it does because it was part of my life so long, but it's alright -shrugs- I do miss it alot, oh well..

Thanks for all the good memories.. in my heart forever. --> pic