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It started to get serious after that, didn't it?

At least for me, it felt so real back then. I wonder if it was the same for all those other girls you came across with.

I was aware of the ridiculous amount of girls you dated before me, I just never had time to let it bother me. I was too busy thinking about you. 

Even though you were around quite often at that time, I kept thinking about you. 

If I closed my eyes for a second, I'd see your own, staring right back at me. I always loved your eyes. 

Your eyes were my favourite thing about you. No, your eyes were my favourite thing. 

I now realize how versatile they were. How could eyes as pretty as yours lie to me like that? 

They say staring into someone's eyes is like staring into their soul. Were you lying to yourself too? When you said you loved me.

When you said you'd be back soon. 

The saddest part is that even now, I have no clue about what you were doing. All those times your phone rang, all those times you left in the blink of an eye.

I'll be right back.

Right back my ass. And I let myself believe you. 

Maybe my eyes lied too, don't you think? I didn't like it. But I always replied, it's okay. 

And then I'd wait for you all night, wondering just where you were, with who, doing what. Those questions drenched my head in worry but I didn't let them slip out of my lips.

Until one night.