Sappy, Sappy.

15

I don't think I'll be able to do it.

Jesse goes on a 5 day vacation on Friday. 5 days without any physical contact with Jesse. No hugs, no cuddles, no sleepovers, nothing. I'm going to be completely alone for 5 days.

It's not like I have many other friends to hang out with. The one I have is hanging out with his whore of a girlfriend too much. I know Jesse's worried about it too. He knows that we can barely last a weekend without being depressed without eachother. Imagine 5 days.

Then at the end of the month he goes on another vacation, for a week this time. What am I supposed to do for a week that I can't hold him and tell him he's gonna be alright? How am I gonna hug him when he gets home and pretend like I wasn't on the verge of suicide myself?

I can't handle this, honestly. I've grown too attached to this boy, god damn.