Eunoia

01. Four

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Month One
As they all stand beside Venus' hospital bed, the realization dawned on them. It's nothing but a black space of nothingness that she sees. Her brain is shut off. She has to lie on this god damn hospital bed for however long she needs. Everything is just fucking different without her. Jackson couldn't sleep at night knowing she's going tobe looking at the back of her eyelids for however long she needs. Her parents can't even function without her talking back to them all the time. Leah can't be able to do anything. She lost the motivation that Venus gave to her.

Everything changed for everyone.

The night she checked into the hospital, Venus was alone. It was one of those nights where you just need to go for a drive to take your mind off of things. Venus was drunk from adrenaline and lost herself midway, didn't see the car coming, and crashed right into it. The other driver went by with mild injuries. But as for Venus, she got herself into a coma.

By the next week, her family was notified (as her phone phone was found in the crash) and immediately rushed to the hospital every day. Her parents notified her friends and everyone that Venus loved the most would visit her numb body in hospital room 5-27.

What they didn't know is that she could hear everything they said. Day after day, she heard everything.

"I don't know if you can hear me, V, but I just want to update you. It's been a month. I haven't been focusing in school anymore. I-I don't know what to do. I'm so lost. Everything just changed.

"Everytime I pass by your locker at school I get so frusterated because that's where you would put in your books before class. I can't even eat lunch anymore. I just sit at a lunch table with a fucking sandwhich and apple juice and pull at my hair because we'd always switch drinks. I get orange juice, you get apple. Class isn't the same either. In photography, I just half ass all the projects because usually, we'd help each other with tips on how to make things better. I can't even watch Gabbie anymore. All her story time videos aren't the same with you freaking out about it over skype."Leah grabs Venus' hand, and sniffles.

"Your hand feels so cold." She heard Leah move around as she sits beside Venus' body. "It's like all the life you had just poured out of you." Venus wasn't sure if a tear dropped onto her hand. She couldn't feel or think. She could just hear.

"I swear to God, Venus, if you die I'm not going to function anymore. I'm going to sit on a hospital bed and just die there. You literally helped me with everything, Venus. You can't just fucking leave me like that. Life wouldn't be the same because you give me happiness. It's bullshit if you die. The fucking world needs someone like you, God damn it." Leah wipes her eyes and stands up. "It is also bullshit how visiting time ends at 8 o'clock. I'll see you tomorrow, V. I love you." As a doctor enters, Leah leaves with bloodshot eyes.

Month Two
"You're still in this filthy place? God damn. A girl like you shouldn't be just here, trapped. I don't know how to voice my emotions, V, and you know that. I just. I can't skateboard the same. It just makes me feel all sad knowing that you're not there with me. You're my little sister, man. Not by blood but just by..I dont even fucking know. You just are. Everyone at the skate park looks at me funny because all I do there now is sit and listen to music.

It makes me feel so weird just talking to your body. It feels like I'm not even talking to you. It feels like I'm just talking to a dead body even though you're not dead. I feel like you're not even here physically. Like your fucking soul or some shit isn't even here. It's weird." Jackson ruffles his hair. He's frusterated. Venus listens, and tries to speak out. She's been trying for a while now. It doesn't work. She feels like her soul is trapped in a dead body. She can't move anything.
"I'm gonna go. I can't even do things the same, it's just. I don't know how to explain how I feel. I'm going to go cook myself some hamburger helper mac and cheese and pretend you're there with me watching The Walking Dead." Venus hears his laugh, it being raspier than usual. It hurts knowing that she can hear everything but can't even do anything about the things she hears. It hurts her a lot.