Close Calls

Backlash

"Tamika don't fucking play with me, what did you say?" Carter yells.

Him yelling made me jump. I just stayed silent. He grabbed my arm, gripping It hard. He pulled me upstairs and threw me on the floor.

"You gonna fucking tell me what you said now?" He yelled once again.

"I said how do you love me when your always hitting and yelling at me asshole" I say low.

"Asshole?" He laughed coldly.

I get up from the floor and dust myself off.

"Yeah asshole" I say to his face.

"Do it. Fucking hit me. When your boys find out you're hitting on a bitch how the fuck they gone look at you? Like the true bitch you are!" I yell at him.

He was silent for a while. I go in the closet and grab my bag that I packed just in case this happened. I bump past him and grab my car keys and was soon on my way.

In case you guys forgot but I'm 1 month pregnant. After Carter hits me, I make sure that I go to the hospital right after. The baby is fine but they always ask question and once involved CPS because of all the bruises I had on my body. I lied and told them I'm clumsy and just fall. But I don't know how long their gonna believe that.

I pull up to Mama London's house. I would never tell her that her son beat me but I think she knows.

I get out the car, locking it behind me and walking to the front door. I knocked 3 times until Mama London answered the door greeting me with a tight hug.

"Baby, I haven't seen you in a while, how you been?" She asks me.

"I've been good, what about you?"

"Good, come inside and take a seat."

I did as I was told and sat on the coach across from Mama London.

"So how's my baby Carter?" She asked me.

"He's the same Carter, you know" I hang my head.

"Tamika, I know he's hitting you" she says.

My head jumps up and I look at her.

"No he's not" I protest.

"Tamika. I see the bruises on your body. There's a new one every time you come to visit. I've been through the same situation, and I ended up marrying that person."

"Johnson used to hit you Ma?" I ask her suprised.

She nodded her head.

"He was my brothers bestfriend and when I was 16 he was babysitting me and he raped me. Everyone I told thought I was stupid but I felt something between me and Johnson and I couldn't let that go. He would beat me all the time. Until I told him I was having out child and I was going to leave if he kept hitting me. I wasn't going to risk my baby's life." She told me.

"Ma I never knew... I'm sorry"

"Why are you saying sorry? You weren't even born when this was happening. And you had nothing o do with this so don't apologize. Do you want me to talk to Carter?"

"NO!!" I yelled and she jumped.

"No it's fine, it's fine you don't have to" I tell her.

"Are you-"

"Yeah" I cut her off.

"Okay, we'll you look like you're getting a little thick" she says.

I'm showing already?

"You pregnant?" She asks me.

I put my head down. "Yeah" a tear rolls down my face.

"Congratulations.. What's wrong?" She asks me.

"How the hell am I going to keep this baby while I'm getting hit everyday. I don't wanna go through what I went through before. She I told him I was pregnant again he assumed that I cheated on him and it was his. I haven't went anywhere literally and he still didn't believe me, how am I going to keep my baby?" I say.

"Baby you can't stay there anymore if he's risking the life of your baby. Your welcome I stay here for as long as you want. Carter might need some space to think about things and how much you mean to him." She says.

"Don't you think I did that before? All he did was find me and beat me twice as harder than before. I just can't leave anymore." I get up grabbing my bag and keys.

"I'll call you later Ma". I head out to my car and pull off.

I pull up to my house and Carter was still home. I unlock the door and walk in. I drop my keys and bag on the kitchen island and walk to my bedroom.

No one was there so I lay on the bed covering my body with the warm cotton blanket. I start to doze off when I feel the bed sink next to me, and a arm rap around my side.

I felt a finger making hear shapes on my stomach and then he spoke.

"I would never want hurt something that is mine. Weather you're a lil me or a lil mommy, I'm gonna take care of you and mommy. No more of my old ways. Daddy wasn't in the right state of mind and didn't know that what he was doing could loose the most important people in my life" he said.

I grinned and slowly fell asleep to the sound of his voice.

-

I woke up and Carter wasn't next to me anymore. I get up, stretch and then head to the bathroom.

-

When I get out the bathroom, I walk downstairs to see a note and a plate of food. The note said:

-Baby, no I didn't go to the trap and no I didn't go to get a stash. I'm going to my mothers house to apologize for all the mistakes I have caused. To you and to her and my pops. I'll be back in about a hour. I made you breakfast just In case you woke up before I got back. I made enough for both of my baby's. Love you.
~Carter

I smile at the note and place it back on the counter. I unwrap the tinfoil from the plate to see that he made me strawberry pancakes, hash browns, eggs & cheese and turkey bacon.

This was my favorite. I grab a fork and dig in. While I'm in the middle of eating I hear keys unlock the door. I knew it was Carter so I didn't bother to look. I hear him put his keys down on the counter and then he raps his arms around me.

"You like what I made for you babe?" He asked kissing my cheek.

"Yes I love it boo" I say finished the last of my food.

"Good, I was hoping you likes it" he took the plate and put it in the sink. He then picked me up (Bridal Style) and carried me upstairs to the bedroom.

He laid me down on the bed, soon laying right beside me.

"Babe?" He said.

"Yeah what is it?" I ask curious.

"I love you.."

"I love you too dummy" I laugh and then kiss him.

I hope he stays this way. This is the way I like our relationship!