When I woke up the next morning, I sat up and stretched my arms. I was the only one awake, and I had a massive boner. Usually I would just blame it on morning wood, but I knew that wasn't the case. Last night, I had had a dream about Ashley. I'm not sure why, though, I've never thought about him like that before, or any guy for that matter. It was probably just because I no longer had Scout and Ash was the second closest person to me. I get in the bathroom, take a nice, cold shower and I start getting ready.
Today we have band practice, and I really want to look nice. After my little conversation in my head last night, I'm feeling a lot better about the break up. I put on a pair of black skinny jeans, a white v-neck shirt, a grey scarf, a few bracelets, necklaces and my black converse. I apply my makeup carefully, making sure not to smudge the eyeliner. Finally, I straighten my hair and make my way out of the bathroom. All of the other guys are already awake.
CC whistles. "Someone's extra fancy today," he says. "Are you trying to find someone today?"
"No!" I mumble, my cheeks getting redder by the second. I wasn't trying to find someone so soon, right? I mean, there wasn't anyone I could think of at the moment. Maybe it was a subconcious thing.
The rest of the guys laughed and got ready on their own. They ate breakfast but I opted for a coffee. If I was going to wear skinny jeans then I had to stay skinny. We all filed into the car and drove over to Jinxx's house.
As we get there, Jake turns around and looks at me. "Ashley is going to be here, too. Will you be okay?" All of the guys have concerned looks on their faces.
"Of course I'll be fine," I assured them. "I'm actually feeling a lot better now, thanks to you guys."
They all gave me smiles before walking inside. We set up the practice space and, just as we were done, Ashley walked into the basement. He was wearing black cowboy boots and a cowboy hat, as usual. He had his usual star necklace and hello kitty bracelet on, too. He wasn't wearing a shirt, just a tuxedo vest that was partially buttoned. And his pants were super tight and ripped up a lot. especially by his hips. He honestly looked a little slutty today, not that I minded.
I stopped myself right after that. Ashley was attractive, but I really needed to stop thinking about him like that. I'm straight and he is too, nothing will happen between us. When I came back to reality, I discovered that today was a song writing day. I grab my notebook and get to work.
I hear Jinxx playing his rhythm guitar and hum a tune along. I start writing lyrics as I go along, without putting much thought into them.
I cannot hide what's on my mind
I feel it burning deep inside
A passion crime to take what's mine
Let us start living for today
Never gonna change my mind
We can leave it all behind
Nothing's gonna stop us
No not this time
So take your hand in mine it's ours tonight
This is a rebel love song
Hearts will sacrifice it's do or die
This is a rebel love song
"Hey, whatcha writing?" I jump in my seat and turn to face Ash who's leaning over my shoulder.
"Nothing really..." My face feels really hot.
"C'mon, let me see" He leans over my shoulder even more and our faces are inches apart. I can feel butterflies start to come in my stomach. " Ooo, Andy, are you in love?" Ash teases me.
"No, I'm not!" I half shout and take the notebook away from him. He gets right up in my face again.
"Are you sure Andy? You can tell me anything." He tells me.
"Yeah, I know Ash, and I promise I don't like anyone, ok?" I flash a smile at him.
His smile lowers for a second but then it reappears just as quickly. "Alrighty then" He walks back over to his bass and starts playing again. My face gets back to its normal color, but I'm still in a daze.
Why did my face get red around Ashley? Why did he give me butterflies? Why did I keep thinkning about how attractive he was? These questions kept spinning through my head, but I didn't have a guess until late at night when I was in bed. I was looking at my pictures of Ash and his "girlfriends" and I got jealous each time. That's when I finally accepted that I liked Ashley.
