Urban story

chapter 36

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Chapter 36

Poppi

For the first time ever, I thought about being with Ashley. I honestly felt like if she was to ask me to leave my fiance right now I would because she got that big of a hold on me I'll do anything for her. The love I have for Ashley is becoming stronger than any love I have ever given. I happiness is my happiness, her pain is my pain, her friends is a friend of mines and her enemies is my enemies.

When she slapped me and said what she said I seen the pain in her eyes. I was saddened by that because I hate for her to feel like I wasn't true to my words and want to her like that.

When she had walked off to her car and drove off I was going to let her go so she can cool down, because I seen how angry she was, but as I was thinking about it I said to myself I can't have her feeling that way and got to let her know I'm serious. So I hopped in the car and followed her.

Not driving for long she came to a stop pulling up in a Holiday in hotel that was a few blocks away from the hospital. I parked in a car lot across the street from the hotel and seen Ashley parked and walked in the hotel with bag in her hand.

Ten minutes later I got out the car and enter the hotel. I seen that coast was cleared and she already checked in and went up to her room. I went up to the desk clerk as he getting.

"Welcome to the holiday in How can I help you," he politely asked sounding like a girl.

"I would like to know the room number to the young lady who checked in."

"You talking about the girl with the cute Louie V bag."

"Yea,'' I nodded my head.

"I'm Sorry sir we can't give out that information, it's against the Hotel policies.

I pulled out out stack of hundred laying it on the counter. Its was about thousands dollars.

His eyes gotten big as he grabbed the money then counted it.

"She in room 211. Here, here the keys if you need them" he threw the keys on the counter. I grabbed the keys and turned around walking off.

"Thank you Jesus, you answered my prayers, this money came right on time" he praised the lord being one happy guy.

I hopped on the elevator and went up to the second floor. I got off searching for her room. Coming to a stop in front of door with the number 211 in black, I knocked 3 times.

"Who is it," she voiced.

I didn't say nothing as I wait for her to open the door. Seconds later she opened the door with her hand on her hip.

"What are you doing here Poppi" She asked looking upset.

''Ask me" I said ready to give her all of me.

"What" she scrunched up her eyebrows shaking her head " I don't know why you're here. I can't believe you followed me right now you need to ,"

Before she could even even finish whatever she had to say I attack her lips with mines against hers, forcing my tongue into her mouth.She sucked on my bottom lip as she began she kiss me back.

I pinned her on the wall as broke the kiss. "I wasn't play with you shorty I was serious" I gazed in her eyes then kissed her cheek.

"Ask me" I whispered in her then sucked on her neck. She grabbed my face and begin to kiss me. I took her to the bed and stipped off all her clothes. After ate her good causing her to bust back to back we made love that whole night.

Waking up to a empty space next to me I Looked up seeing Ashley sitting on the end of the bed putting on her clothes. I looked at my phone and seen it was an hour until check out time.

As I as looking at Ashley putting her shirt over her head smile while I was admiring her. I love the feeling when i wake up next to her. I feel complete to know that she is safe and sound and here with me.

I always seen Ashley always being in my life but I could definitely see her being in my life forever as my lady. I couldn't be selfish anymore and had to make a choice. I love my fiance I can't keep doing her wrong from the action of my feelings. I'm in love with another woman and I can't let her go. I don't want nobody else to have her because I want her. I need her, she became my everything.

I was willing to start everything fresh and new with Ashley. No more hidden feeling, no more secrets. Just lay everything out there not caring how anybody feel. Is going to be hard for me to break it off to London but I have to tell her what it is. I don't want to hurt her but I don't want to loose Ashley so I have to let London go.

"Good morning beautiful" I spoke laying up on the bed.

She turned around and smiled. ''Good morning''

I ain't really get a chance to express verbally on how I feel because i was too busy showing her but I was ready to let her know how I felt and where i wanted to be and that was with her.

Right before I was about to say something she spoke. "Hey we need to talk." She said.

I got up from under the cover and scooted up and the end up the bed sitting next to her. "I feel the same" I looked at her.

"I don't think we need to see each other again."

My heart stopped for a quick second "What," I asked confused.

"I'm saying Poppi we can't do this anymore. We have people who really love us and we shouldn't hurt them like that. This what we doing is wrong. Dwayne is a good guy and her really likes me and I can't do this to him, I already lied to him enough and you have a finance. We just need to stay away with each other. All your loving need to go to your soon to be wife and I need to focus on building with Dwayne because I really like him. We can't do that if we're around each, we're taking focus off what really important."

For some odd reason hearing her saying that hurt me badly. I wasn't expecting that and was hoping for something else. I wanted her to feel the same way I felt and that's wanting us to finally be together.

"Are you sure that what you want," i ask gazing into her eyes trying to search her true answer. She stared into my eyes for a second then nodded her head.

Not sure if I believed her I kissed her lips. She stopped me "No stop. I can't do this," she pushed me off, scooting away.

Trying to respect her wishes I bit down on my lip nodding my head. "I feel you, you're right,'' I said blankly. I was a little in my feeling but I had to respect the fact she really felt that way.

"And you're right we don't need to see each other like that. I'll support you from afar, and keep my distance.

She smirked then kissed my cheek "thank you.'' She got off the bed and grabbed her bags off the table then turned back to face me. "I'm bout to head to the hospital. I guess I see you around," was the last word she said before walking the room leaving me behind.

Seeing her walk out shatter me. It felt like she was walking out my life. I couldn't believe I just let her walk out of without going after her. I wanted to but I had to let her walk away if that was her choice. If she didn't want this and wasn't ready for it, I couldn't force it on her.

Even though it felt like she walked out my life I wasn't going to let her walk out my life completely. I was still going to be here for her and support her. I'll just have to support her from a distance and respect her wishes. I ain't even going to like this shit hurt.