Struggles of My Younger Self( On Hold) #Wattys2015

Chapter 14

It's been a few weeks since the dinner.Everything is as normal as it can be.Sherdil is his usual bipolar self.Kulthum and I would do the house chores and Sherdil would be out all day long.He would just come home for lunch and dinner.

One good thing is that I started praying regularly.Kulthum taught me some hadiths and adhkars which she memorized.

Breshna came a few times.I was very scared for what would she say about Kulthum but Alhamdulillah she didn't say anything infact she loved Kulthum and promised that she won't tell anyone about her.

Sherdil was a very different kind of person.He would be very serious one minute and the other he would joke about something.One thing I noticed was that I was now comfortable with him around.I didn't feel scared of him anymore.

One day I was sweeping the corridor when the broomstick broke.I didn't even know when he saw me or went out but a while later he came home with a long thick branch that he broke off a tree and mend the broom for me.He didn't even wait for me to thank him and went out again.

He was weird but good.I never thought I would be saying something like this about him but his mother was actually right.He was a good person.

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I was woken up by Kulthum for fajr prayer.I went out to the toilet to make wudhu.It was still dark outside and the wind was chilly.

When I came out of the washroom I saw a sleepy Sherdil waiting outside.

"Ahh you scared me.What are you doing here?",I asked.

"I was going to the kitchen to eat something but I guess I came to the wrong place.Ofcourse I'm going to the toilet what else would I be going here at this time",he answered in an annoyed tone.

"Can't you answer like a normal person?",without even waiting for his sarcastic comeback I went to the room to pray fajr.

"What took you so long?",Kulthum asked while getting up from the prayer mat.

"That stupid has to show up this early in the morning just to ruin my mood",I was very annoyed by him.

"Ah haan Zahra.What did I told you about respecting your husband?",she said disappointedly.

"Please Kulthum not that again.I did told you before he's not someone who deserve any respect and secondly let me pray fajr.It's getting late",I didn't want her to tell me again about the greatness of a husband.Yesterday she told me a hadith about wife respecting her husband.It was just a random topic out of the many topics we were discussing yesterday.

"You are a lost case",she said as she sat on the bed to do her adhkar.

I rolled my eyes before starting my prayer.Fajr prayer was the best part of my day.This was the time when I could be relax and concentrate completely on what I was doing.Prayer was a way to talk to Allah and fajr was exactly the time when I could truly feel it.

Kulthum taught me some adhkar that I would do after fajr prayer and then after praying ishraaq we would both go to the kitchen to prepare breakfast.

Sherdil would woke up by the sound of the utensils as his room was close to the kitchen.

I would then serve him his breakfast because I didn't think it fair on Kulthum to do so as she was the more practicing one.

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