Secrets within

Broken

Hope you enjoy the book

Not edited I'm too lazy for that

~ Jaz

Briar
Love , ha I don't know the meaning. I mean I have people who I think love me but I've never loved I've lost but never loved. You must be confused so let me fill you in. My name is Briar I'm 17 I have long dark hair that fall into curls a little past my shoulders I'm extremely small and get a lot of stick for it I have dark brown eyes which remind me of chocolate and I'm the most messed up person you'll ever meet. I live at home with my little sister ,Elizabeth and my dad Scott . We live in a small town in the middle of no where it rains all the time and there's nothing to do. I'm like any other teenager I don't have many friends my two best friends are Lexa and Dylan. Lexa is there for girl talk and to help out with my terrible fashion sense where as Dylan's there for serious talk like school work and home life I don't know what I would do without them I would be here that's for sure.

My life is a livening hell. Ever since my mum died when I was 13 I've been a mess. I couldn't cope with this pain I kept feeling in my heart like something was missing. All my life I've suffered from bullies and teachers yes ,teachers but my mum helped me very step of the way and now that she's gone I'm broken,I'm unfixable ,I'm nothing. I remember laying in my bed staring into space no one could wake me out of my daze. Lexa and Dylan visited everyday and just sat there watching me dying inside both of them knowing they could do nothing to help. After the funeral things got better for a while the bullies at school backed off and the teachers took it easy but I was still in my daze I needed to feel something anything. Pain that's what I feel pain is the only thing I feel. The first time I cried as the razor pierced my skin after that it got easier.

Everyday after school I would run up stairs and lock myself in my room completely shutting the world out. Under my bed I kept a box full of pictures and nicknacks in here I hide my weapons. Using the word weapons makes it sound like I keep a hand gun under my bed by weapons I mean razor blade and scissors they were my save haven they were what reminded me I was still here still alive.

A few months after my mums death things went back to normal again . The bullies would shout at me at school one in particular always got to me a girl in my year called Brooke had been ruining my life since play group and as we grew up it got worse. She would shout at me in the corridors say things about the way I looked and dressed that's how Lexa and me first met she notice Brooke say something about my outfit she then invited her self round my house and completely rearranged my wardrobe so something good did come out of years of torture. Lexa is cool and confident she has long black hair that fell at her waist in soft curls her eyes were a amazing mixture of greens and golds with stood out from her dark skin as well as having a amazing face her figure was to die for and she knew it when ever we went out which wasn't offend she would strut around the shopping centre swaying her hips and walking tall making sure to stick out her boobs I looked like a French fry next to her with my tiny skinny form. I spent most of my time in my room which consists of a small library placed again the wall next to the window and built in wardrobe with a twin sized bed and a small arm chair that was covered in blankets there's nothing better than reading one of my many books on a rainy day curled up in my arm chair.

Little did I know my rainy days inside were over the real world was coming for me and it wasn't the way I left it.

CLIFFHANGER in opera voice
Hope it wasn't too bad I might change a few things not sure yet
I love this book already and can't wait to write the rest once I start writing it's almost impossible for me to stop
I would like to say that my mum is not dead just incase u thought I was using real life experiences which I am for some parts but not all

I would like to dedicated this book to my very alive mother and all my amazing friends who have helped and supported me so much love you all

Lastly I would like to leave a question for u all

My question is if u could turn into any animal what would it be ??????
Raises eyebrows in suspicious way with evil laugh

MOOOOOOHAHAHAHAHA
I'm really strange and I do apologise
Leave any comments u like and five me feedback about the book the good and the bad
Anyway till next time

Jazmine out