cake oneshots || book two

Hold Me Close, Wrap Me Up

Credit: Kayehmwny

Hi

So it's okay if you hate me since I've been gone for literally forever

Idk why I haven't updated, I have no excuses, I just haven't and I'm really really sorry, like I feel really bad. I'm gonna try to get back into, idk how it'll go but I will try:)

But anyway ITS SUMMER YAY

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It had started with a few simple google searches, some common stress relief methods... and the not so common. What at first seemed like a strange and crazy idea to Luke, soon turned into an interest, and that is how Luke Hemmings found himself out at the drugstore looking at pacifiers at an ungodly hour of the morning, knowing the boys wouldn't be up for another hour at least.

Despite his better judgement, he kept his hood up as he swiped not one, but two small blue pacifiers from the infants section of the small shop and made his way to the register, forcing himself not to look at any of the other tempting goodies in the same isle.

It wasn't until two weeks later that the blonde finally allowed himself to indulge in his possible interests. The band had a few days off, however, they were still stuck in a hotel in a random European country.

"Are you sure you don't want to go sightseeing with us Lu?" called Calum from across the hotel room, where he was busy tying the laces on his dusty black converse.

"Yeah Cal, I really need to catch up on sleep. Take pictures for me though!" Luke did his best to hide his nervous excitement as he watching Calum wave and close the door behind him.

After a few minutes of waiting, making sure everyone was gone, Luke dug to the very bottom of his bag where he had stashed the two blue pieces of rubber and plastic. Slowly, he opened the package and pulled one of them back to his bed with him. He hesitantly brought the rubber to his mouth and felt around, trying to get used to the feeling. Soon enough, the blonde was laying down with the small pacifier bobbing up and down between his lips, feeling his eyes droop shut.

However, before he was able to fully fall asleep, his phone went off signaling a few photos from the bassist. Luke was pulled out of his little bubble, and realized that he had been off completely in his own world... he had read about this. A... a headspace? he wondered. Yes, he is pretty sure he had fallen just slightly into a headspace.

Knowing this scared yet excited the blonde, knowing that he now had another side of himself to indulge in. However, he knew it would take work to hide this from the boys, if he was to continue. But before he had a chance to think it over, his feet were dragging his body down the street on a mission to find the nearest shopping center or drugstore.

What's the next thing..? he thought. He searched around the shop for a while, thinking through what he could hide from the boys, and what he would have to wait on until after tour. He remembered small characteristics he had researched.. Blankets, bottles, nappies... nappies, he thought. Although he knew it would be difficult to hide from the boys, it was something he had taken a particular interest in.

Maybe just a small pack, he figured, grabbing the first ones he saw and practically throwing them at the register out of anxiety. Once he was back to the safety of his hotel room, he sat on his bed and simply stared at the package, not knowing if he would be able to go through with it. But, after googling a bit more on his phone and reading some related fan-fiction on the matter, he finally ripped open the package, taking one out and shoving the rest underneath all of the clothes in his suitcase.

Once it was actually secured around his narrow hips, he didn't really know what to do next. Yes, he knew that he was supposed to.. use it, but he just couldn't get himself to do it.