~ Jussie's House ~
"Mmmm....I have.....to go" I said while , where are you going" he said. "Home so maybe my mom won't be worried about me" I said. "Fine but let me walk you" he asked. "Okay you can walk me to my house" I said.
We put on our clothes and walked to my house. We made small talk but nothing that really benefited what we did this morning. "Did I hurt you?" He blurted out. "No you were acctually very slow and gentle" I said. "Can we keep this between us please I don't want Logan to know and....." I was cut off when he said "Logan, your not gonna leave him". "No I can't we've been through a lot and he loves me and I acctually think I...love him" I said with a few pauses in the middle of my sentence. "You w eventually your gonna have to chose between me and him right" he said. "Yeah" I said with a sigh. "But for the mean time I will be by your side whenever you need me" he said.
As we made our way to the front door of my house he stopped to ask me a question. "So what are we since your still with logan" he asked. "You know what we are" I said with a grin that made him catch on. "Don't say what I think your about to say" he laughed. "Were fuck buddies" I said with a giggle at the end. We laughed for a while after that joke.
"Well I'll see you tommorow, bye" he said as he grabbed my shirt to forcefully kiss me even though I was all in. "Bye Jussie" I said while unlocking my front door and running to my bedroon. I made it there just in time cause my mom had to get a glass of water at that exact moment.
Once I got to bed I told Kimberly everything that happened. She was just as shocked as me. Man I'm still pretty shocked myself. Then I thought about Logan and how I ditched him for Jussie. But he has to know that it was my best friends birthday. But I know tommorow is gonna hurt somebody.
~ Lunch Period ~
"Babe why didn't you show up to the date last night" Logan said as he sat down next to me. "I was at Jussie's party and he was really drunk and I had to be a good friend and help" I said. "Ohh well is he okay" he said trying to fool me into thinking he cares. "Yeah he should be" I said thinking about what we did last night.
"I'll be right back" I told Logan as I made my way to me and Jussie's hiding spot that only the janitor knows about. "Right on time" Jussie said as he pulled me in for a kiss. We decided to make that our make out place for every lunch period. We made out for half the lunch period till I relized Logan might get suspicious. "Jussie.....Jussie wait.......we have to stop" I said almost sounding like I was moaning. "We've been in here for half the lunch period" I said. "Yeah your right, you leave first and I'll be right behind you" he said. "Okay but don't make it to obvious" I said while leaving.
When I made it back Logan was looking for me. "Babe where we're you and why didnt you tell me Jussie made out with you twice while we were dating" he said. "Who told you" I said. "No one, I just found a video on Facebook of Jussie being drunk and saying stupid stuff" he said pretty annoyed. "Umm well you see it wasn't a make-out session the first time cause I was partly drunk at the semi formal dance and the second time I thought it was you" I explained. "That's all that happened nothing else that you need to tell me" he asked. "Nope my heart lies only for you" I said very hesitantly.
"Okay come on baby girl, let's go feed you some lunch" he said as he put his arm around my neck and walked me to the table. I caught Jussie staring at me here and there. When Logan got up to get me lunch I pulled out my phone right away. I texted him saying:
ME:
Stop staring a me.
JUSSIE:
Sorry I can't help it your too beautiful.
ME:
Well your gonna have to or people are gonna get suspicious.
JUSSIE:
Fine but make sure you save those lips for after school.
With that text I looked and gave him a wink. Logan came back as soon as I looked at him and noticed something.
"Who you talking to" he asked. "Myself, just getting ready to talk to you" I said smiling giving him a quick peck.
~Afterschool~
"Ready to go" Logan said. "Ohh I didn't tell you, I'm going to Jussie's House to hang out and make up for lost time" I said. "You know your spending alot of time with Jussie and not your actual boyfriend right" Logan said. "Sorry but he's my best friend and I vowed to be by his side" I said while making the air clear. "Okay just don't do something you'll regret " he said as he walked away. I knew he knew something was up, why else would he make that statement. I was speechless and very hurt. But he had a right because I was being unfaithful.
"You ready to go" Jussie said. "Yeah, ready when you are" I said. After that we drove to his house and got to kissing. "You know were gonna get caught somehow or way" I said while laying under his covers. "Yeah but I love the risk I'm taking" he said while play fighting with me. We were on top of each other and everything. All I could think of is how much I love him and how he made me feel special. I could be me when I'm with him. But then I remembered Logan made me feel this way and more. "Gotcha" Jussie said as I was on top of him trying to pin him down but he has my wrists. "Fine fine you win" I said as we both kissed it off.
Time went by and I was wearing his old t-shirts cause he threw water on my other one during our massive water fight. We layed on his bed together going through each other's phones. Until the doorbell rang. "It's probably the mail man" Jussie said. "I'll get it" I said.
I walked down the steps happy that I'm here with Jussie. The only weird part is that it wasn't a mail man it was Logan. "You unfaithful bitch, this was the one time thing you told me about" Logan said when he saw me just in a t-shirt. "Listen it's not what it...." I was cut off by Logan when he said "Don't tell me it's not what it looks like cause it really looks like a thot who fucks whoever she wants to fuck for her enjoyment. Let me guess your not a virgin" there was a pause. "Why would a slut like you not be fucked already" Logan continued to scream. I started to cry right there.
Every single detail he said I deserved. The worst part is that it was true. I was the slut he was describing because I was playing two boys at once. I knew I couldn't just stand there and whatch so I closed the door in his face. I sat on the wood floor leaning on the door with my legs covering my face while I cried.
I saw Jussie walk down five minutes later. "I've been waiting for an eternity for you to come back to bed, what's the hold up" he said. I got upset with that sentence and decided to give him a peice of my mind. "You know what, you caused me all this pain. If you didn't play that stupid prank on me or kissed me this would of never happened. I fucking hate you and I wish I could take back those days I wasted on you. I would of never lost the one person who cared about me. I can't even describe how much pain you put me in you fucking bastard " I said angrily. I know I didn't mean any of that and p p I would regret it but I didnt want him to stay with a girl like me. I'm just gonna end up break his heart too. "I know you don't mean any of that" Jussie said. "I mean every word you son of a bitch, I hate you and I wish I never met you" I cried. I ran home after that hopeing no one would see me and what I was wearing. I heard him call my name when I ran but I didnt care. I didnt go back for anything I just used my spare key under the mat of my door and I had my phone with me. That's all I needed. The rest he could burn.
I can't believe I said that. Why couldn't I just have not open the door. Why did I say that to him. He must hate me. It's for the better I don't want to hurt Jussie too. It's bad enough I lost Logan. I mest up everything. Why am I that one friend.
