I ran home as fast as I can. I regret everything I said. When I made it home I almost had an axiety attack. I can't remember the last time I had an axiety attack.
Once I got a hold of myself I told Kimberly all their was to know about how much I screwed up. She came over as quick as possible and nursed me back to a good state of mind. After that she told a few ways on how to curse out Logan for what he said to me. I told her I deserved it and she tried to do what they do in the movies and slapped me. She thought it would make me feel better but it just reminded me of pain.
~Lunch Period~
It's been a week since I talked to Jussie or Logan about our confrontation. "Can you sit next to me today" I asked Kimberly. "But I got homework to do and I don't want to sit here and talk about your problems" she said. I gave her a look. "Fine but you better make room cause I never get a seat here" she said. I waved at Alex to move down. She just mimicked everything I said but she used a dinosaur voice to depict me. I just rolled my eyes and left her alone.
I looked to see if Jussie was there and he was. He was just sitting at his table with all his friends. Except he wasn't talking. I felt so bad and I just couldn't see this anymore. I got up and told Kimberly I will be right back.
Once I got up I swear I was being followed. I just kept walking down the hall in an effort to find out what was going on. Once I got to the end of the hall it was christine and her friends.
"So you wanna fuck other people's boyfriend's bitch and not act like we weren't gonna fight" christine said. "Listen watever me and Jussie did is my business and his and we never fucked when you were together" I said. "And last time I checked you broke up with him, lucky you did it sooner cause he was about leave you" I added.
Next thing I knew her hands were all over me. I grabbed her fucking hair and pulled her to the ground. She made her way on top of me as she punched my nose. Next thing I knew I was on top of her pulling that synthetic weave she called brazilian out if her head. Then they stopped.
That's when my ride or die, skye, and sasha walked in. "Naa bro your not gonna be hitting my friend Brooklyn like that though" skye said. After that she immediately started swinging. That's why she was my ride or die, she was always there for me when I really needed help. Sooner or later my whole table just started joining in.
Just when I was ready to whoop christine's ass for punching me a male figure pulled me back. He was seperating both of us and that one action made everyone pause and look at us be broken apart. Immediately after he pulled us back christine's group decided to leave and my group was checking to see if everyone's okay.
When I turned to see who it was, it was Logan. "You good" Logan said.
"Yeah" I said in a shocked voice. He pulled me to the side to talk to me.
"Listen I'm so sorry for the words I said yesterday" he said. "It's okay I deserved them" I said. "No you didn't, I should of never handled it the way I did" Logan said. "No listen I was being an unfaithful bitch and you deserved better" I said. "Do you mind if we can move past it and start over, my life has been hell without you" he said. "Yeah I would like that" I said. I was shocked as hell that he was talking to me again or that he wants to start over. But I'm glad I'm making progress.
He walked me to my table and talked about everything I missed when we weren't talking. Everyone at my table started saying "ohh" when they saw me and Logan talking. It brought so much attention to us almost the whole cafeteria looked. Even Jussie looked. His face was not happy but it was the same as last time but a more confused mixed with some sadness.
When I looked at him again I saw him leave the cafeteria. I didnt go after him cause I didn't want to start a new friendship with him and then break his heart over and over again. So I just did the earth a favor and left him alone.
~ The Evening ~
"Listen you can't be serious getting back with logan" Kimberly said on the phone. "I'm team Jussie all the way" she added. "Well that ship is long gone so get used to team Logan" I said.
"I don't trust Logan, especially because he wants to get back with you after he found out a week ago you were sleeping with another guy the whole time" she said. It did get me curious and it made me question what was really going on.
Until I got a phone call from the other end. "I'll call you back Kimberly I have to go, someone is calling me" I said as I hanged up the phone to answer the other.
It was Jussie's mom. "Brooklyn honey please come quick Jussie locked himself in the bathroom and won't come out. I found three of my prescribed pills missing" she cried. I got out my bed and ran for the door. I didnt even have time to close my house door.
When I made it to Jussie's House she told me he was upstairs. When I ran up to the bathroom it was locked. "Jussie open the door please" I cried. "Its too late. You dont even care about me so why are you here" he said. "I do care for you and I always will just please don't do this" I cried not even being able to say my sentence clearly. " It's too late just leave me......" as I heard him stop talking. I heard a big thump on the floor. I took my metro card and unlocked the door. I found him layed on the floor unconscious. I heard his mother run up the stairs.
She cried so hard that she almost collapsed if I didn't hold her. I couldn't stop crying that I almost couldn't breathe when I saw the medic come in I was crying. "Jussie please wake up. PLEASE JUSSIE WAKE U...." I tried to say but it all came out foggy cause I couldn't stop crying. I watched them put him in the ambulance and I asked If I could ride cause his mom was taking the car.
They let me sit right next to him as I cried out his name hopeing he would wake up any second now.
