HIDDEN LOVE // 99goonsquad

#23

(Y/n)'s POV

                "hey... hey.. wake up" Geo whisper "huh...?" I woke up "we will land" he stand up and back to his seat, I put the seat belt around me, and hug my back pack cause I still sleepy. we landed, finally can come back again, we waiting a taxi to come. I sat on my suitcase waiting the taxi come. then 3 taxi is came to us "so (y/n), Jovani, and Elisa here. Geo, your mom, and I in that taxi. and Cat, Mario, and Julian there" Andrea said, I just nodded. we all get into the taxi, Cat sat beside the driver, me and Jovani sat on the back. I close the door and put my head on the windows and look out the window, we're not talking and the radio is off so here are so quite. but then I hear Jovani get a message, I look at him and he is smiling to his phone "who is that?" I ask "Bea" he said and looked back to his phone.

                I take my polaroid and take a photo f him when he is focused on his phone, I put that on the album later or he will know what I make for him, I just put that picture on my pocket. we got to Jara's house, "thank you" I said to driver and give the money, I pull my suitcase inside the house. "hey mom!!" Andrea and Julian yell, I just smiling and give her hug. I sat on the sofa and watch tv then "mom I got to go now" Jovani said "where are you go?" sh ask "meeting someone" he said almost opened the door "who?!" she ask "Beatrice" he run to the car. 'WHAT? BEATRICE? why? why?' I said to my self and almost drop my tears, I remember to put a picture on the album I take the picture on my pocket and the album, I put it and write 'it's show me that he love her, and draw a broken heart . I close the album and put on my back pack.

1 hour later

                 I just playing my phone then I got notification, Jovani post a photo of him and her in the mall on Instagram I take my polaroid again and take a picture of the post and put it again on the album, and now my tears come down on my face. I run to the bathroom, I look at the mirror and see my horrible face, I try to find a razor but I couldn't fin it I just find a knife "I can use this" I said, I start cutting my hand slowly but deep, it's bleeding so much I got 5 cut on my hand. I wash it and cleaning everything. I got out from the bathroom and take my sweater on my back and wear it to cover this. I go back to the bathroom and look at the mirror again, why? why? I have to alive, I walked backwards the I hit something and make a noise, "anyone there?" Julian ask, I didn't answer "hey anybody there? Elisa?" he ask.

Julian's POV

                  "hey, anybody there? Elisa?" I ask, I start worried I try to opened the door but it's locked from inside. I find the other key and opened the door, I walk in and see (y/n) sat in the corner, I walk over to her and hug her "what are you doing, and why a knife here?" I ask, she just holding her left hand, I grab her left hand opened the sleeves, I see so many fresh cut. "why you do this?" I ask and hug her, I kiss her fore head, but then "Julian...? what are you doing with her here?" I turn around to see who is that, I see Elisa standing there with tears on her cheek, "but.. but.. I tell you, it's not like what you think El" I said "El it's not.... El listen to me, I'm sorry" (y/n) said she standing "WHAT?" Elisa yell and run, I run after her, I keep following her everywhere. until I find her on the park, I hug her and tell everything, she trust me "I'm sorry" she said and hug me.

(Y/n)'s POV

                   "Julian...? what are you doing with her here?" I see Elisa standing there with tears on her cheek, "but.. but.. I tell you, it's not like what you think El" he said "El it's not.... El listen to me, I'm sorry" I said, I start confused and standing "WHAT?" Elisa yell and run, Julian run after her. 

WHAT JUST I DO? I HATE MY SELF, I HOPE I CAN DIE NOW. 

I run into the woods and find the lake again, I just sat under a tree crying and throw all the stone, "WHY I HAVE TO ALIVE? WHY? NOW NO ONE WILL LOVE ME AGAIN" I scream louder

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