Do I remember the first time I cut myself?:
Yes
Was I ashamed?:
No
I'm not ashamed of what I've done to my skin. I guess it'll be like a tattoo of lines or a memory for a while until it starts to fade away. At the time cutting was my only way of stopping the pain. The blade was my only friend. My skin loved the feeling of it slicing down my arm or thighs creating a beautiful piece of art. It was not hard to hide from people at all.
Am I ashamed now?:
Yes
It may show memories and that I have gotten through it. (not entirely.) It's my story to tell that I'm making small progresses one step at a time. Having done this It will affect my future. I don't want to see my future children or my childrens children go through the same thing as me so I will have my story to tell and the scars to prove what it did to me and my body, which I hope to change their mind on not cutting.
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Lost and Lonely (#Wattys2016)
Short StoryJust somethings things I write when I'm in the mood or I am lost and lonely and depressed. WARNING: May be triggering. If so I'm so sorry and know how you feel. PM if you need help or something. ~ C
