Shattered by fate.

Chapter Nineteen: the big bad wolf, Rawr

When the door closed I realized what Ivan had just said, as the woman started speaking I realized why he put her in here with me "p-please don't hurt me it was an accident a misunderstanding I never meant to I couldn't control my self"
" well which was it a misunderstanding an accident or did you not control yourself? Is you are going to lie than choose one lie the more you have the easier it is to see that you are lying!"I yell at her and add "your family they loved you and since he didn't say husband there were children ,who kills kids!"
"I um I ," she takes a breath of relief after stuttering through her sentence and says calmly" you got me ugh I know your not the cops so you won't do anything no need to lie huh? I got you, you can't hurt me or you will be just like me"
"I will never be like you!" I scream as I step forward and I feel my eyes change color as her face turns blank realizing that I was much much worse than her and as my bare hands wrapped around her neck I felt her feel real sorrow for her self "you feel bad for yourself but not for those kids" I yell at her as she falls to the floor and I stand smiling triumphantly as she says her last words
"It was worth it , I couldn't help my self they were so sweet..." She says as she passes on to the great beyond(if you believe that)
The door creaks open as I sit down and start realizing what I had just done Ivan rushes in and wraps me in his suit jacket and holds me as I start crying and mumble "that's not supposed to feel good why does it feel good."
"Vampires have it easy we don't have to kill we don't even have to injure we can drink from pigs or blood bags I will never know why but we were made for a reason which is unknown to me, it's not your fault " he says as I sit and cry on the couch and fall asleep in his arms

When I wake up I stand and look around seeing that I am in a bedroom of some kind and walk to the closet hoping that there is a change of clothes when I open it I whisper to myself "bloody hell why in the world is there no pants I have had enough of dresses to last me a lifetime no five lifetimes!" I slip on a long black dress with lace sleeves and sit down and wait for one of the people I know to come bursting through the door hours pass and I get bored of waiting so I go and grab a Bobby pin from the bathroom and start fiddling with the lock only to find out that it's open wow you didn't even check did you ugh that's very much I thing I would do , pick a lock when the door is open I chuckle as I open the door and very quietly walk down a long Crimson hallway oh I have a feeling that I know who kidnapped me ugh it was Hanrik he is the only one who would paint the halls to hide blood spatter! I see a long stair case and as I walk down I hear voices arguing
"She is a danger to everyone she should be locked up" a loud angry voice says
"No!"three voices say at the same time
"She should stay here where we can help her give her what she needs" a creepy voice says
"Where you can manipulate her no I could take her far from society and try to help her " a gentle voice suggests
"She could stay with the others and just try to stop in total" a calming voice says right after they start arguing
"WHY DON'T I GET A SAY ITS MY LIFE " I yell as I step into the room making it go dead silent
"It is her life brother" Ivan says to Hanrik
"But she will just make the decision that is best for her not caring for others" Castiel says back
"I will go " says the large man in a leather jacket as he leaves the room and I presume the house
" first off who's house castel mansion thing am I in!" I yell
"Mine-ours" Hanrik and Ivan say at the same time
"And what are my choices for what happens next?"I ask while taking a seat far from the others
"You can stay here with me and Ivan " Hanrik says while trying and failing to do a sweet smile
"You can stay at the compound but in isolation for most of the day." Castiel suggests
"No the only one that has proven actually care for me is Ivan I would like for him to accompany where ever I go"I say
"Well I thought that maybe we could go to a different country and work on control while keeping everyone safe " Ivan says quietly
" or how about I just run off and go back to my life and rule of don't stay in a city for more than one week that would be best for everyone so yeah! I loved my life before so I feel that Hanriks is the best so far I will never say this again but I think I should stay here for a little I promise you this , I will not stay here for long just till I can find a house. Now I plan on wondering around till I find a bedroom I like and siting down and reading a book and Hanrik if you ever put me in your bedroom again I will kill you. Now who would like to give me the tour!" I say while smiling