Tierra's POV
"Jamal stop playing!" I said as I laughed as he swung me around by my waist. "Okay okay okay, I'm done." He said putting me down as I just smiled and gave him a hug. "You know, I'm really starting to like you." Jamal said smiling, showing off his dimples.
"I'm really starting to like you too," I said honestly. Jamal and I have been talking for three days, and he's so sweet and I feel so comfortable around him. He has a different vibe, it just makes me feel like I can be myself.
Trey's POV
"Who is that?" I asked Ashley as she is sitting next to me on the porch. "Who him?" She asked looking at dude who playing around with Tierra. "Yea," I said looking at Ashley so Tierra don't think I'm talking about her.
"That's Jamal, Tierra started talking to him a few days ago. He's a nice guy, I mean well around her he is and every time I see him he is." She said looking away from her phone and at me. "Oh," I said looking at them.
"Are you jealous?" Ashley asked poking my side. "Nah, I don't even care." I said taking out my phone. "If you didn't care, then you wouldn't have cared enough to ask who Jamal is." She said as I started texting Monica.
I met Monica at this lil club I go to every once in a while. She down with any and everything, and that's why I kept her number. "Who is that?" Ashley asked looking over on my phone. "You better stop being nosey before you see something that will scar your ass for life." I said standing making her laugh.
"Right, use protection. You don't know her like that!" Ashley shouted as I smirked because that sure did gain Tierra's attention and she's not smiling anymore. I just kept walking, then I called Monica.
"Aye Moni, stop whatever you doing, I'm on my way." I said making her giggle. "Okay daddy, I was waiting for you to call." She said making me smile. "Aye, you ain't said shit but a word." I said getting into my car.
I don't give a fuck what Tierra do, she can get the fuck right now. Nobody needs her here, so why the fuck is she still here???
Ashley's POV
Three hours later
"When is your next ultrasound?" Domo asked as he's laid across my bed. "Next week Thursday," I said thinking about Ar'iah. "Oh, okay. Your graduation is tomorrow, do you know how you want to celebrate?" He asked as I shook my head not really in the mood to talk right now.
"Well just let me know, but we are celebrating regardless." He said making me laugh. "Well my family always throw a party for everyone who graduates high school, and the whole family usually shows up." I said looking back at him.
"Okay, so we can do that and maybe later on we can celebrate alone too." He said and I smiled. "That's if I'm not too tired after the party," I said looking back at him. Translation, if Ar'iah don't want to do anything fun afterwards.
Things got quiet finally, and I enjoyed the silence that I almost never get. If it's not Domo talking, it's Tierra complaining, or it's Tre acting and talking about how he don't care about Tierra and who she's with, or Cory playing, or me just plainly running off to Ar'iah and playing with Anaria. There's always something going on, so when I get a little bit of silence, I enjoy it.
"Bae this is going to be the first time you have to see and interact with Ar'iah since the whole situation, and I know you've been thinking and probably stressing over it. So I want you to know that I'll be by your side no matter what. I'll be with you the whole time to avoid the awkwardness, and the altercations." Domo said as I mentally rolled my eyes.
I know he's trying to be nice and a good boyfriend, but I don't need him to do that nor do I want him to. But the fact that he's taking the initiative to protect my feeling and to try to keep me comfortable is sweet.
"Thanks, that's really thoughtful." I said not able to wait until tomorrow. I'm finally graduating high school, I'm finally about to be done. The only sad thing about it all is that Ar'iah and I aren't together to follow the plans we made for each other as a couple.
When we graduate, we planned to move in together, raise Anaria together, make love whenever we want, be happy, go to school together, and probably adopt another baby way down the line. But we can no longer do that considering we aren't together anymore.
It still aches my heart that she walked away and that we aren't together anymore. Domo is great, but I love Ar'iah so much that I can't see past her. I can't see myself being with Domo in the long run. Yes I'm fighting for it because it's the last thing I have left, but I can't see myself with anyone else but Ar'iah and she won't let us be together again.
A tear fell from my eye quickly and I was fast to wipe it away. But obviously not fast enough, considering Domo saw it. "What's wrong? Is it Ar'iah?" He asked and I know it would just hurt him if I say yes. Just because I'm hurting doesn't mean he has to. "No, I'm just happy I'm graduating. I dreamt of this day for so long." I said and he smiled and hugged me.
"The best part is, I get to experience that happy moment with you. We get to be together and be happy together, and we can celebrate together. That means so much to me Ashley, and I believed you wanted to do all of this with Ar'iah at first. But I was wrong, obviously you moved on and I was afraid that you didn't." He said and I felt even worse, because his gut feelings are right and I'm misleading them.
"I don't know if I want to dress the way you want me to tomorrow." I said and he laid back on the bed on his back with his hand on his forehead. "I know it's not your ideal dress code, but we had an agreement. It may be hard to get used to, but you have to give it a try Ash." He said and looked back at him. "Yea but it's graduation, I should at least have a cheat day." I said and he shook his head.
"Graduation is exactly the reason you should dress up, most girls even dykes dress up girly on graduation day." He said and I couldn't help but to feel offended. "First of all, I was never a dyke, I was a stud. Secondly, I'm not most girls Domo. I don't want to throw on a dress and heels on such an important day for me. I want to be able to actually recognize myself for who I am." I said and he stared at me for a second and I stared at him.
"It takes twenty one days to break a bad habit, sooner or later you'll be able to recognize yourself and probably like yourself better this way." He said and I couldn't help but to get frustrated. "Stop trying to make me into someone I'm not because of your own insecurities! I don't want to wear dresses or crop tops or heels and barely makeup. I want to throw on a pair of joggers and tank top and some sneakers and walk out of here. I want to be able to just throw my hair into a ponytail and call it a day.
But instead of doing what I want and being comfortable, I spend too much time trying to look like someone I despise so you can be happy. I know you don't want to feel like I'll run back to Ar'iah but the truth is I never stopped being in love with her. But instead of kissing the ground she walks on and begging for her forgiveness I'm here with YOU! So if on a important day to me I want to be myself, DON'T FORCE ME TO BE THAT PERSON YOU WANT ME TO MANIFEST INTO!" I said raising my voice.
He looked shocked and hurt and I started to calm down knowing I snapped, especially since I'm breathing heavily. "Fine, wear what you want." He said sitting up. I started feeling even worse hearing the tone he's speaking in. I didn't have to hurt him because of all the built up tension I'm feeling because Ar'iah won't take me back. "I'll give you some time, I'll be back tomorrow." He said standing up and exhaled.
"No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that." I said and he shook his head. "No it's fine, I shouldn't have pushed you too hard." He said and I rolled my eyes. "Stay, I'll wear the dress." I said wrapped my arms around his waist as I looked up at him. "No wear what you feel comfortable wearing, it's all about you. I think you need some time and space to relax," he said projecting what he needs on me. "I love you, I do, it's just that I can't just fall out of love with her. But that doesn't mean I love you any less, or that my love for you isn't growing stronger everyday." I said trying to stare into his eyes but he wouldn't look me in my eyes.
"Yea, I know, I love you too." He said kissing my forehead before removing my arms from around him. "I'll be back tomorrow," he said before leaving out of my room. I flopped down on my bed as I watching him go down the stairs from my room sitting on my bed. "Fuck," I said annoyed with myself for even letting those words escape my mouth while he's with me.
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Is It You?
Teen Fiction**SEQUEL TO WHO IS IT GOING TO BE** Now that Ashley is pregnant, she has to deal with her family and extended family lecture her on life, pregnancy, and goals. But she also has to deal with the pros and cons of being pregnant and being a mother. As...
