[ON HOLD] Defensive 'Till The End (Harry Styles, One Direction Fan Fiction)

Chapter 13 - Goodbye Harry

I feel like the floor might open up beneath me and swallow me whole. And after what I just did to my heart, I wish it would.

I wish I could tell Harry I do like him. I wish I could yell at him to come back and kiss me like that again. I want him to talk dirty to me; ignite the fire inside of me that I never knew existed.

But I can't. I can't because he doesn't belong with me. Lucas does. Lucas is who I really like. He's the one who calls me beautiful; not a slut.  He's the one who  kisses me softly making sure I'm fine.

So basically I  only like Harry because he's dark, mysterious, tall, sexy, funny, rude,  bad, and raspy, and I like Lucas because he's funny, smart, sweet, and playful.  So Lucas is obviously the winner right?

I'm not sure if this is true or not but I'm going to stick with it because it's the only thing that will keep my feet planted firmly on the ground and not falling into a state of denial and regret.

"Thank you so much Lucas. I thought he would never leave. Are you ok? How badly did he hurt you?" I say when I realize the pain won't subside. He ignored the second question and went full rage.

"To hell with that. I saw exactly what you did." His face is distorted with anger and I bite my tongue to stop the tears that are threatening.

"What do you mean? I didn't-"

"Don't pull that crap with me. You kissed him. I saw it with my own eyes. I may be a little woozy but I saw it."

"I know I'm sorry. It's just that I...I" I don't have an exuse because I did kiss him. And I wanted to kiss him. This is all my fault.

"You what? That's right you can't say nothing because its your fault. I don't know if I can do this. You either pick him or me." I feel as if I'm about to cry. How can I choose between them?

No Rachel, it's easy. You pick the boy you actually like. I tell myself. It is easy.

"I just yelled at Harry to get out of my life and you asking me to choose between you two." I try to keep the tears back but they flow down my cheeks like a waterfall. Lucas' face softens a little but he kept his resolve.

"Pick him. or me." He emphasized each word clearly. Why does he do this?

"You. Of course I  want you. I'm done with Harry, I promise. Just please forgive me. I don't know what came over me. I.." I didn't know what else to say so I just let I out a loud sigh, whipped my tears and looked Lucas in the eyes.

I have to choose him. He's who I want.

"I....I only... ok maybe. I don't know. If you mess up one more time I'm done ok? And I mean it." A huge smile broke out on my face and I nodded like a bobblehead. "I'm only giving you another chance because I really like you."

"Yes! Thank you Lucas. I won't mess up again I promise. And the next time you see Harry I give you permission to hit the life out of him k?" Lucas nodded and laughed. My smile grew even more and I jumped up and hugged him.

"So you have no more feelings towards Harry whatso ever anymore?" Lucas asks, still in the hug. My whole body tenses involuntarily and I pray that he doesn't notice. Luckly he doesn't.

"Yes. I Have no feelings towards Harry anymore. They are all gone." lies.

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Thank you all so much for  reading, voting, and commenting.  I know this chapter is short but I decided I might as well post it since I have massive writer's block and I don't know what to do next. Hope you enjoy this crappy chapter.