Cammie's P.O.V.
Chapter 7
4/9/16
I wake up hungry and unable to function properly. I hear my phone buzzing with notifications. I unplug my phone and check them, they were all from Twitter. I open up the app and check my mentions. Everyone was talking about some tweet Jacob made. I go to his account to see a picture of him and Loren and he's kissing her cheek.
I feel my heart instantly drop and tears forming in my eyes. I guess I wasn't good enough for him. I'm never good enough for anyone. I decide to get ready so I could go to Zach's. Since it was starting to get warmer I went for a t-shirt, jeans, and some vans. I quickly apply some mascara and a thin line of eyeliner. I quickly head downstairs and see my mom sitting in the living room with my dad.
"I'm gonna go to Zach's if that's okay." I inform them.
"That's fine just be back before lunch." My dad says.
"Okay see you later." I say and I go up to them to hug them.
I head outside and walk to Zach's house. I knock on the door and Zach answers right away.
"You saw right?" He asks.
"Yeah." I say.
"I don't know what's going on with him. I was really sure that he liked you." Zach tells me confused.
"I don't know I should just get over it. I knew he didn't like me." I say finally giving up on Jacob.
"Noo don't do that! What you guys had is special." He pleads
"Was special." I say
"C'mon Cam don't be like that." He says
"Doesn't matter." I say tears beginning to form on my eyes.
"No no please don't cry." He begs.
"I think I should get home. I'll text you." I tell him rushing out his room before he could say anything.
Once again when I am on my way home I see Jacob and Loren. This time they're sitting on the stairs of his porch and she is laying her head on his shoulder. I quickly avert my attention to my house and pretend I don't see them. When I get home my dad is just about finished with lunch.
"You're just in time." My mom says heading into the kitchen.
I just nod and take my seat. I quickly eat lunch and head upstairs. When I am in my room I lay on my bed just thinking. It hurt, so much. I really thought we had something special that he liked me and he didn't. I don't know what I did. Was I not worthy of him? Why aren't I good enough? I look in the mirror picking out all my flaws. I finally realized why he didn't like me. I didn't even like myself.
I hear something hit my window. I quickly rush to my wind to see what it was. I see Jacob sitting at his bay window looking at me. I open the window at the same time Jacob does.
"Hey." He says.
"So you're dating Loren now?" I say getting straight to the point.
"Oh um yeah." He says shocked.
"Nice. I'm happy for you guys." I tell him.
"Yeah thanks." He says and then spaces out.
"Jacob?" I say
"Jacob!" I yell
"Huh what?" He says leaving his trance.
"You spaced out." I say laughing.
Jacob's P.O.V.
I decide that I should talk to Cammie since I haven't talk to her in a while. I grab some marbles from somewhere in my room and throw them at her window to get her attention. I had recently gotten together with Loren to see if Cammie would get jealous because that would mean she likes me or that's what Loren told me. Cammie rushes to her window and opens it.
"Hey" I say.
"So you're dating Loren now?" She blurts out.
Shocked I say, "Oh um yeah."
She kind of pauses for a second and then says, "Nice. I'm happy for you guys."
"Yeah thanks." I say. Wow so she didn't care? I was sure she liked me. She doesn't like me? Loren said that she liked me. I can't believe it.
"Jacob!" She yells
"Huh what?" I say
"You spaced out." She says laughing at me. Her laugh was beautiful. Almost as beautiful as her. Why didn't she liked me back? Am I not good enough for her? I decide to push it off to the side for now. We begin to talk like we had before we talked about anything and everything. I always loved how we could just talk it seemed like there was never a time we didn't have anything to talk about and if we didn't have something to talk about it was never awkward. I felt comfortable around her, like I could be myself. It seemed like I could never be myself. People on the internet didn't like me, even if I had millions of fans that doesn't compare to all the "haters" I'm glad I found Cammie, I can be myself and not be judged and she can be herself and not be judged. That is what I love about our friendship. I just wished she liked me back.
