My Scares and Him

Meeting him

Next day...
I get up and walk down stairs.
I smell moms breakfast cooking.
She made pancakes, bacon and eggs.

I sat down at the table with my dad and my other little sister.

"Morning hun"
"Morning"
Mom put a plate of food in front of me.
"Hun after breakfast I need you to take your pills"
"I know mom"
"Oh and you have an appointment today around 2"
"Appointment for what?"
"Your therapy"
"I'm going to a therapist?!"
"Yes"
"The fuck for"
"Hey!"
"I don't need to go to a fucking therapist!"

I got up and walked upstairs to my room.
I got changed
The hell did I need to go to a therapist for. What I didn't get enough help in the hospital.

I don't need to go to a therapist.
I took my pill and I walked out of the house.

I thought I should take a walk.
My doctor at the hospital told me to take walks when I'm mad.

I walk around I didn't go to my appointment. I didn't get home until dinner. Everyone was getting ready for tonight with the people that were coming over.

My sister Joy came into my room

"Hey paris"
"Hey"
"Um..I came to ask you if you were gonna join us for the dinner party tonight?"
"Ummm...yeah let me just get changed"
"Okay"
She walked out and shut the door

I changed into a simple red dress with flats and my hair was down.

I haven't dressed like this in a while.

I started getting nervous.
I fired up a cigarette to help.
I thought I would put a little make-up .
I did a light smokie eye and I put red lipstick on.

People were starting to come.
Dinner was outside on the porch.

I walked down stairs
I walked outside and people were talking, laughing and hugging.

I walked around just minding my own business.
I sat down at the bench.

I noticed a man glancing at me
We was tall he had brown hair.
He was wearing a very nice sharp suit.

Mom called us all to the table I sat across from the guy who was glancing at me.
We sat dinner and people talked
I started feeling sick.
It was late and I didn't take my pill.
I started going insane.

I got up and left everyone and went inside. I went upstairs to take me pill.

After I did that I went down stairs and got a bottle of wine.
I sat in the grass in front.
Drinking a bottle of wine.

As I was drinking I heard someone say hey.
I turned around and it was Mr. Nice suit

"Hey"
I said
"What are you doing out here?"
"Getting away from everyone"
"Oh...well do you want me to leave?"
"No your fine I've had wine so I'll be okay"
"Okay...mind if I sit?"
"Sure"
"So your Daniels sister"
"Yeah...and your Roxanne's...?"
"I'm just a friend"
"Oh okay"
"What's your name?"
"Paris"
"I'm Sebastian"
"Nice to meet you"
"You too"
"Look I'm not a big talker"
"Its okay"

Me and Sebastian really hit it off. We talked for a while.
He seemed to like me.

I told him that I was gonna go to bed. I told him goodnight and I went inside to my room.
Everyone started leaving.
I changed into my PJs

I couldn't sleep at night like most insane people I would get depressed.
I sometimes cry myself to sleep.
I would get just go crazy at night.

Luckily I had some fixer for that.
A little weed...haha I light it up. I sit there and smoke it...I end up falling asleep.