Forget Me Not (HIATUS )

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

A couple days after waking up in the hospital, I was released and was able to go back home.

I wish I wasn't released from the hospital though. I liked it there. It was amazing there.

I told the doctors that I didn't want any visitors so, my brothers weren't allowed to visit me. It was amazing just sitting there, all day with no one to bother you, judge you or upset you in anyway.

It just gave me time to think and I enjoyed it.

So as you can probably tell, I was upset to go home.

As soon as I reached home, I took a granola bar, apple and a couple water bottles up to my room with me. I haven't left since.

The only time I left my room was to use the bathroom or take a shower. I have completely shut out the outside world.

The doctor had written me a note excusing me from school until next week Monday. I had to beg for that note. At first, he wouldn't budge but, I had my mind determined on getting that note so, I kept on bugging him. He finally caved in.

It's Wednesday now. My plan for today was to just sit on my window seat and watch the world before me take place.

It was amazing at what happens when people don't think you're looking.

It's 11:00 so I've been sitting and watching people for around three hours. Some people might think this is boring and a waste of time but it's not, at all.

Within the three hours of me sitting here, I have seen so much. I have seen some guy walking his dog, that shitted on the side walk. The guy picked up his dog's shit in a little baggy but, he threw the bag away in our trash can that was waiting for the garbage truck to empty it. I laughed at that.

Another thing I saw was about an hour after my neighbor, Mr. Sanders, left for work another car showed up at their house. Out came an unfamiliar guy as he walked up to their house. He knocked and Mrs. Sanders opened the door with a smile as she led him in the house. From what I could see, I could only see her wearing a robe and some red stilettos.

What will I do with this information you might ask?

Nothing.

Their secrets are kept with me. My lips are sealed shut.

I have enough problems in my life, I don't really need other people's drama in my life as well.

I also like to keep it a secret because it helps me. It helps me know that other people have problems in their life as well, not just me.

I just stared out my window and watched as the rain drops started pouring down and sliding down my window.

I liked rain. I liked the smell, the cold, the noise it makes when it hits a window. I just love rain.

I watched as the rain fell and hit my window, sliding all the way down before falling to the grass below it.

I placed my hand on the window and rested my forehead beside it. The window was cold against my skin but I liked it.

I just stayed like that with my eyes closed. I hadn't even realized that a tear had slipped. Until I felt it slide down my cheek.

I opened my eyes just to feel more tears escape. I quickly wipe them away and sniffled my nose.

You know that quote "People cry not because they are weak. It's because they've been strong for too long." That's what I thought of right now.

My grandma told me that quote once. She died from cancer a little while after mom passed away.

I loved my grandma so much. She and my mom were my everything. I loved them both so much.

It killed me even more when I found out that my grandmother had died.

The sad part was, she knew she was going to die. So, she had the doctor call me and they told me to head down to the hospital.

When I got there I got to say my goodbyes to her as we both knew it was her time to go.

I miss my grandma so much.

A couple more tears escaped my eyes. One for my mom. One for my grandma and one fore my fucked up life.

What did I ever do to deserve this life?

Nobody deserves this.

Life is so cruel.

I opened my eyes once again when I heard giggling coming from the hall.

Who is that?

I'm the only one home right now. As I listen some more to the giggling I realize there is another voice as well.

A deep voice.

A voice I would recognize from anywhere. It's Daniel. Him and Sophia always skip school. It's nothin new that they probably came here for sex.

I haven't talked to Daniel since the hospital accident and he hasn't tried to talk to me.

That's how I know he was being honest. I know that he honestly hates me because he hasn't tried to apologize in any sort of way.

What a family I've got!

I tried to ignore the giggling. I tried to pretend that it was all in my head but, I couldn't stop thinking about it. It was so annoying.

She just needs to shut the fuck up. I can't process any thoughts with her annoyingly high pitched laugh. I don't understand how Daniel can handle her. She's a total bitch.

Just ignore it Amira, eventually she'll go away. Just ignore it. She won't bother you if you don't other her. I try to persuade myself.

But just like with my father, persuading myself it was real wouldn't do shit, because in the end it's all still reality and there's nothing you can do to change it.

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Shitty chapter... I know... Writers block :(