Letters of my Life. (A Skip Beat! Fanfic)

Chapter 12

"What the hell is he doing?" Chiori and Kanae both jumped up and were thinking of running to the door when they started speaking in the room,

"Hello Sebastian-san, do you need something? Or are you maybe my support that the letter spoke of?" Kyoko looked up at the aid, the tear marks on her face still glistening slightly. If she would've been able to think clearly, she may have even been a little ashamed at herself but the aid just smiled.

"No Miss Mogami-san, I'm not your support. That would be miss Kotonami-san and miss Amamiya-san, they are just down the hallway If you wish me to call for them. First, if I may talk to you and if I may speak frankly?" Kyoko looked at the man who still stood by the door. He had always been there at Lory's side, ever present and ever looking out for her.

"Of course, Sebastian-san. You don't need to ask. Please sit down." he seemed, if anything, more serious than usual. She didn't know how that could be possible but he did.

"Thank you, Mogami-san." he said. As he walked properly into the room he didn't sit but he did speak,

"Mogami-san, I have watched you from the very start when you came to this company as a determined child until now. You are an amazing actress with her whole life ahead of her. I have sat and watched as you have struggled through bad times and cheered you on when you succeeded. I know the position you have been put in tonight and if you will accept it, though I will not give you an answer to your problem, I will give you my opinion on the matter as it is something I feel very strongly about." Kyoko looked at him astounded.

So this is what he meant by speaking frankly.

she thought as she nodded for him to continue,

"Thank you, Mogami-san. I want you to clear your mind for the moment, Mogami-san. I know it probably feels like you're ten feet underwater but take a few deep breaths and just listen to my voice." Kyoko did as she was asked, inhaling deeply as she listened to the aide speak.

"When I was younger I was hurt very badly by the one I believed I loved Mogami-san, very much like yourself and Fuwa-san. I was tossed aside and it hurt badly, my heart never truly healed from that experience. Years later I met the most wonderful woman. She was kind and beautiful, smart and funny and if I had realised then what I know now I loved her dearly. But I was unable to let go Mogami-san. I was too scared of being hurt again that I missed my chance to tell that wonderful woman what I thought about her. I lost my chance at regaining the happiness all due to my own fear." she watched as silent tears fell from the aid's eyes. Her mind was clear now, the man who had never really shown any emotion was standing before her crying and her heart wept for his pain.

"I do not wish for you to make the same mistake as me, Mogami-san. The fact is we all get these chances in life and we are all tied to people by fate, if you will. But if we are too scared of being hurt we will never really be able to move forwards. I was saved by Lory-sama in my darkest moment and he taught me all of this and so much more. If you are Love Me member number one, I suppose I would be the beginning of that, though maybe I would be Love Me number zero. You are a wonderful, clever and beautiful young woman, Mogami-san. Do not let the fear of your past hurts hobble your feet on the path to your future. You are worth so much more than that." Kyoko was crying now, but at his words her brain seemed to have cleared. The box in her heart had no traces of the locks she had placed around had simply vanished.

"I thank you for your time, Mogami-san." he said as he turned to leave.

"Sebastian-san?" he paused and looked at her,

"Yes, Mogami-san?" he asked as he watched her fumble for her words,

"What happened to the woman you loved?" she knew that it was a rude question but she just had to know.

"She died Mogami-san, it was unexpected and sudden, which is how I came to realise life is too short to waste on fear." he walked a few more steps before Kyoko's soft words reached his ears

"I'm sure she knew you loved her. Even if you never said the words, I'm sure she knew." he just nodded softly as he exited the room. Kyoko turned back to the vanity unit and looked at the pile of open letters. Walking over, she gently stroked the last letter.

I've made my choice, Corn. Forgive me.