Above The World (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 11

CHAPTER 11

Everyday with Gabriel made me fall for him more and more. I strayed away from the word love at all costs, but I knew my feelings were pointing in that direction. I guess you could just say I was scared. Scared of what could happen if I let myself fall. What if he didn't feel the same? Or what if he decided that he didn't want to be with a guy? We weren't even "boyfriends" yet. I couldn't let myself fall that hard for someone that I wasn't even sure would be there to catch me.

I'd see Gabriel in the halls sometimes and he would only give me a smile as he passed by. But his smile was all that I needed. It said everything that needed to be said. Whenever I was with Aurora and we saw him, she'd have a hard time holding in her excitement, but she knew she had to. But in all honesty, I was usually just as excited. Seeing him still made my heart pound through my chest every single time.

Zenan noticed a difference in my mood. I didn't think it was that obvious but he said that I seemed more "chipper" than usual and demanded that I tell him the reason.

"There's this guy...," I told him.

"Does this guy have a name?" Asked Zenan.

"Um...not yet," I joked, "But hopefully you will get to know soon. Just not yet."

He understood and dropped it for the time being. I knew he was probably going to bring it up again sometime, but I hoped by that time Gabriel and I would be a real couple, to the whole world. It still kind of bothered me that we couldn't be open with how our feelings. But I understood that Gabriel just wasn't ready, and I was fine with the way things were going for us. It was nice. It just felt like it wasn't really going anywhere. It felt as if we'd always be stuck telling each other how awesome we thought the other was, but could never share it with the world.

In art we were supposed to be making a clay sculpture of an animal of our choice. I was trying to make a horse, but it looked more like a giraffe, so I told the teacher that's what I was going for. Aurora made a dog and it looked amazing. Brooke's was worse than mine though. She attempted to make a dolphin, but it ended up looking like....nothing. Needless to say, the teacher was not impressed. Aurora and I couldn't help but laugh.

At lunch, my little crew was more hyper than usual. We were singing Lady Gaga really loud and obnoxiously. We talked about how we wanted to have a movie moment where one person starts to sing and dance, then suddenly the whole cafeteria knows the song and dance moves. But we didn't have such luck. Instead, I got a milk carton to the back.

"Sit the fuck down faggot!" Travis. No surprise there.

A bunch of kids started to laugh. It kind of pissed me off. I was embarrased, but I didn't say anything. I'm sure he wasn't the only person that wanted me to shut up in this case. But then he didn't stop, in his normal Travis fashion.

"Do you even know how gay you are?" He asked.

"Just ignore him," said Brooke, "He's obviously just trying to make a scene." Aurora and Zenan agreed.

I knew they were right, but it was so hard to just ignore it. Even when I did ignore him he continued with his bullshit. Gabriel was sitting at the table with him and other football guys. He looked at me as if to say the same thing as Brooke. I just took a few deep breaths and continued talking to my friends. We tried to talk over Travis's loud heckling, but it was no use. He was trying to make everyone notice him at all costs.

"Hey, I have a corndog over here, fag. You want it? You want the weiner, fag?"

"Travis, shut the hell up before I bite yours off!" Yelled Aurora.