The White Wolf

The White Wolf [12]

Its already afternoon and I still feel pain on my body from yesterday. Thalia is not talking to me nor the others, people from my pack think I should back down from my alpha position. What do you think? Should I back down or keep doing what I am doing.

Since I bit Alexandra we have been helping her with her transformation. Her shift is today at the afternoon, the difficult thing about her shifting is that her wolf can take control and try to kill me so I need to show her wolf to respect me. Lesarus doesn't want to eat nor drink water, he is really getting me mad that he won't eat or drink.

'Alpha there is a situation' My new beta CJ says, 'what's the problem?'. 'Alexandra is shifting' I growl at this 'take her out to the field I will be there right now' after that I close the mind link and ran out to the fields. I see Alexandra lying there in great pain, I ran over to her "Alexandra take deep breaths and let your body do it's thing" I say soothingly. She did what I told her and her wolf came to life, she is fully brown with a little black spots on her eyes. 'I am Cinda Alexandra's wolf and you are the one who cause her pain, so I am going to show you who's boss' he tells me through the link. She stands ready to pounce at me, I stay in my human form and wait for her to come at me.

She jumps straight at me but I grab her and threw her to the ground. I tried shifting but my wolves didn't want to, Cinda came after me again but I threw her to a tree. She whimpered, she finally submitted and I told Ber I wasn't going to hurt her. I told Cinda that I am going to help her with this new transformation. She later shifted and I gave her clothes to put on. I told her she can join my pack and she accepted so I showed her new room, I told her all about our kind and that we have a destined mate. After Alexandra got settled in, I went to Lesarus to find out how he is doing. I opened the door to see a starving dying Lesarus, "Lesarus I brought you food but this time eat please" I say and drop the food in front of him. He pushes it away and lays down on his bed, I growled "Can't you see you are slowly dying your wolf is calling out to help you but you always ignore him! Now please eat before you die!" I yell out to him.

He looks up at me as if I couldn't see how he is, "I don't care if I die, you already rejected me so what is the point of living anyway" and in that moment I start feeling guilty because I didn't see how he would've felt. I walk away before I cry in front of him, people see my tears but they don't ask what's wrong. I cry onto a pillow and Cody comes in soothing me, I forgot to mention Lucas my decision about the marriage proposal oh well I will see him tomorrow anyway.