THE REBOUND

PART ONE

Naranasan nyo na bang maging rebound? Yung alam nyo rebound lang kayo but you still accepted your situation?

Masakit na nga, nakakatanga pa. I know the feeling because i'd been there. I'm stupid am i? Of course. But what can i do? I love him so much that i can't bear to see him being so much miserable and hurt.

I hate the girl. She don't know what she had lost. Hindi nya alam kung gaano ka- Ideal man si Ryan. I hate her dahil tinapon nya lang yung pinapahalagahan ko ng sobra.

Nasasaktan ako tuwing hinahalikan nya ako. Nasasaktan ak0 every time his lips touch mine because i know he's just doing it because of so much lounging  for the woman he truly love. Natatangahan ako every time i return his kisses but i won't regret this stupidity. I want to hug him tighter to make him feel that i'm always here ready to love him.

For three months of being a couple, he never say he loves me. Sinasabi ko yun lagi sakanya pero isang thank you at ngiti lang ang natatanggap k0. What should i expect. Of course i am a rebound. He never love me just like how he love her.

Ryan is every girls dream. A perfect gentleman, a good looking guy, intelligent, possesses such a good character and a very funny guy.

I've been his best friend for almost 5 years. Unfortunately, he didn't know i'm inlove with him. Nahulog ako sakanya ng hindi ko namamalayan. Hindi ko naman balak ipaalam because i don't want to ruin the friendship we had. This is so cliché situation so i know what should i do to this feeling. Kelangang tanggalin k0 na to. It takes a lot of time i know but i should be patient.

Naging masaya ako sakanya when he finally found his girl, Rina. Ipinakita ko sakanya ang sup0rta ko kahit deep inside, may kirot at inggit akong nararamdaman.

Unti-unting nawalan ng oras sakin si Ryan. Syempre kasa- kasama nya lagi si Rina. I should accept that i will be his least priority from now on. I took it as a chance to rid this unusual feelings in me. I kept my self busy with my study and i got a part time job. Naging abala kami pareho till we didn't see each other sa loob ng limang buwan. Naisip ko minsan, masyado bang malawak ang University para hindi kami magkita? Oh well, maybe because i'm hideous. Hindi naman kami magkadepartment at nagagawi lang kami sa department ng isa't-isa nung naghihintayan kami.

Till one day, i saw him outside of my room. Napatulala ako sa gulat and he seemed so much sad and.... hurt?

Ngumiti sya sakin pero hindi naman yun umabot sa mata nya. Parang pilit na pilit. Curiousity strikes me. What happened?

"Pwedeng sumabay sa best friend ko?" he asked.

I paused. Wait? Bago to ah. Sa
loob ng mahigit limang buwan ngayn lang sya makikisabay sakin?

Ngumiti sya sakin at dun ako bumalik sa kamalayan. I nodded. We walked together.

" How are you?" I asked. I feel awkward. Kung dati, this is just a normal day pero ngayon iba na.

"I'm okay. Wala namang nagbago.Ikaw?"

"Ganun din."

Sabay kaming natawa sa mga sagot namin. Haay! Napapala ng mga ta0ng alam lahat ng tungkol sa isa't isa. Ang boring kung manimula.

We catched up things. Inopen nya sakin yung paghihiwalay nila ni Rina. Though, hindi buo ang detalye nya. Nakita kong malungkot sya sa nangyari sakanila. He says sorry for abandoning me daw. Nakakatamp0 nga kung tutuusin yung nangyari. We've been bestfriends for 5 years pero inintindi ko nalang sya and i also used the time that were not together for trying to dismiss the unusual feelings. But unfortunately, i didn't succeed, namiss ko sya ng sobra at pakiramdam ko my feelings grew more.

Back to normal kaming dalawa. Lagi na ulit kaming magkasama. Madalas din kaming magkatext at tawagan. Madalas din syang mag stay sa bahay. He says para daw makabawi sa pagkukulang nya.

But i'd notice something, our situation now is a little bit different dun sa dati. Parang.... mas naging close pa kami. And this situation is giving me hope. It's giving me a glimpse of hope na baka nga maging kami.

Every time we walked together, we do holding hands. Madalas akong magulat sa biglaan nyang pagpapakita ng sweet gestures sakin. Though, i'm perfectly happy. I don't want to conclude but i can't help to think na baka may gusto sya sakin.

Naging masaya ako sa sitwasyon namin. Sobrang saya. Nagko-conclude nga ako ng nanliligaw sya sakin. I'm dying curious if i'm right but i'm afraid to ask him and he gives me ' no' for an answer so i remained contended in our situation.

But one time, i saw my self crying at my room, crying because of confrontation. Iniiyakan ko yung katotohanan. Iniiyakan ko yung papaging assuming ko.

Para akong sinampal ng sobrang lakas ng marinig ko mismo sakanya na mahal nya parin si Rina at para ak0ng inumpog ng mag sorry sya sakin dahil sa mga pinaggagawa nya.

I never think that all the sweet gestures he showed to me was only an escape o panakip butas to his sadness and lounging. He's just imagining to me Rina and the relationship they had. Para syang gumagawa ng sarili nyang paranaginip at ako  yung kunyaring Rina.

Tinawanan ko sya at binatukan. He felt relieve dahil hindi naman daw ako nagalit pero hindi nya alam na gusto kong magwala at iumpog sya ng paulit ulit. Gusto ko syang kalbuhin at bungihin sya para kahit papaano mawalan ng kaunti yung feeling k0  sakanya pero mas magmumuka naman akong kawawa.

    Ang sakit sa pakiramdam na makikita mo syang nasasaktan habang nakatingin sa mahal nya. Ang sakit sa pakiramdam na makita mo yung muka nyang punong pun0 ng sakit at bakas ng pangungulila sa mata.

We saw Rina at the the coffee shop. She's with another guy and she seemed very happy. I saw a glimpse of hurt on Ryan's eye kaya nagyaya ak0ng sa ibang lugar nalang kami pumunta.

I hate to see him crying and worse i am not the reason why he cried. Parang sinampal ng libong beses. Natauhan ako sa ilusyon ko at wala syang gusto sakin pero hindi naman ako natauhan na mali pang mahalin sya. Bagkus, i was blinded by thought na maaari parin maging kami. Maaari paring mahalin nya ako. I was blinded by the thought that their relationship was ruined and they are not together anymore. All i need now is to divert his attention to me.

Hindi ako nag iisip ng matino. I didn't let my mind think right. I just followed what my heart wanted.

"Ryan, i can be your rebound. I don't want to see you like this."