Crazy

Chapter 8: Dinner Night

I walked into the kitchen. I saw Dean at the table. He had a smile on his face I looked and saw what he did.

"Hey I uh... made dinner." I looked at him. "Smells good." I sat down and he came and gave me my plate. It looked awesome. He had wine for me and of course beer for him. "I think you did a good job. It looks beautiful." He looked at me and grinned.  Hopefully he didn't have anything in mind tonight. He poured his beer into a glass cup. I laughed. I think its cute. "What?" He said with a smile. "Nothing. Its just cute." He smiled. "So lets talk about you." He smiled and leaned in. "Well I mean I'm just an average girl ya know sam as everyone." She couldn't keep I contact. "You arentb the same as everyone. You are a funny and awesome person to be around. Its good not being the same as everyone. It makes you even better." My face burned. I looked up at him. He looked at me and said "Try a bite." I said. " The burgers are great." He took a huge bite and smiled. It made my stomache have butterflys. He's a really nice guy. No guy has said that to me. I grabbed my burger and took a big bite. "Mmmm this is so good Dean." He laughed. "Secret formula...... I cooked it with love." He winked. I laughed. I ate some more and got to my curly fries. They were spicy and crunchy. Delicous. It was the best home cooked meal I've had made for me. I finished up roght after Dean. I poured a glass of wine. We toasted. "To a great meal." We clanked them together. I took a sip. He sat his down without drinking any.  "Courtney, honestly.... I have been thinking and I know we just met awhile ago but I'm starting to have feelings for you. I'm wondering if you want to go out with me?" He was serious this time. "Or just another date. I really enjoy being around you and you are amazing. I'd like to hang out more." My heart dropped. What about me and Sam??! What do I do??!! I have to tell him before anything. But I'm not sure how sam will feel. "Are you ok?" Dean asked and grabbed my hand. "Uh.. what? Oh uh... I mean. Dean I have something to tell you first." I felt on the verge of a panick attack. He was looking right at me....ready
...and listening... "Dean I just want to say that......I'm not sure." His facial expression broke my heart in two.

"I have to tell you before anything goes on. I just want to say I have hooked up with Sam already." I wanted to hide my face. I felt terrible. He sat up and moved his hand from my hand. "Oh."  I sat there. Feeling numb. "I'm sorry. I didn't know." I stuttered trying to say. "Did you do it after I teased around with you or before?" He looked down at the ground. "After." I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I felt stupid. He shuffled in his seat. "It just happened. I didn't think. But then I did it again. I mean you stopped and I just fell for Sam." He looked at me. I was crying a little. "I didn't know Dean, I didn't know. Yeah I have a thing for you. But I also have a thing for your brother. I thought you quit because you lost interest." I grabbed his hand. "I stopped because I was going to be the good guy this time. Not just a friend with benefits. I wanted to try something new and be a great guy for you. I didn't want to take advantage of you." He looked sad but kept calm. "I mean who can resist this ya know." He laughed sadly. "Well I just have to talk to Sam and figure out what I am going to do. Its hard I'm so sorry." Another tear fell. Dean grabbed my face and wiped it away. "Its ok. But if we did get together I would hope you don't keep messing with him." He got up and took our plates into the kitchen and the other dishes. He still had the look on his face. I got up and went to my room. I laid down and cried. I wanted to cry myself to sleep but I couldn't. I just cried. I didn't know what to do and everything from building up just washed over me. All the memories and bad things and now. I don't knwo how to take this. I cried and cried. A little later I heard a knock on my door. "Courtney...." it was Dean.  I just wiped my face and didn't answer. "Baby girl... are you ok?" He opened the door. I hid my face. He got on my bed and sat beside me. "If your upset because you think I'm upset. I'm not. Its ok. You don't have to be upset about it." He rubbed my back. I moved the pillow and moved my face. "Babe" he grabbed me and leaned me into his chest. I broke again. I just hurt. My heart was so heavy I let it all out I haven't cried like this since my mom died. I breathed. He rubbed my back. "Its ok." His voice soothed me. I grabbed around his waist and hugged him and held him tight. He held me. He placed his chin on my head and just rocked me. I finally calmed down minus some shutters that followed. He smelt like smoke, whiskey and slight colone or something. I loved it. He lulled me half to sleep. I remember him humming and I fell asleep.

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I woke up. I looked around and saw Dean beside me asleep in the bed. I was tucked in hia arms. He had his arm wrapped around my waist. I looked what time it was. It was 8am. I laid there a little bit enjoying it. Then I remebered last night, what all happened. I was so embarrassed.  I felt him stir. He opened his eyes and I looked at him. He smiled. "You ok?" He stretched. I nodded I sat up. He did too. "What happened? Like after i fell asleep.." he got up. "Well I just held you and made sure you were ok  but then Sam came home and saw. He left us alone. I think he got mad or he was tired not sure. But I just layed you down and I didn't want to go deal with him if he was mad so I just layed on the opposite side. But somehow we ended up cuddling.'' He smiled. I smiled too. "Thanks. I'm sorry for being a mess." My eyes hurt from crying so much. "You cried that much over this?" He asked but then I saw on his face he didn't mean to put it that way. "Well actually everything was built up and I just broke." He looked at me. "Whats wrong?" "Or caused you so much? " he sat back down in feont of me. I looked up at him. "Just a mixture of things." I looked at me with beautiful green eyes. "I can explain later." He shook his head. He got up and I did. I went to the bathroom and looked at my face. Omg!! I had mascara on me my eyes were red and I was a mess. I stormed into Sam and Dean's room. Sam must of been in the shower. "Why didn't you tell me about this?" He looked at me. "About what?" He was playing stupid. "About how ugly and a mess I am." He walked over to me. "You are not ugly. I think you look beautiful and quite amazing in fact." He hugged me.  I giggled. "Funny." He grabbed me off from hugging him. "I'm serious. I love it when you wake up and look like this. It let's me know you got good sleep. And I don't know I just love it. Same as when you ask random ass question that who knows how you thought of them. I love it." He smiled and squeezed me. I pushed him off laughing. I went back to the other bathroom and cleaned up. I put zero make up on. I came out in some grey caprees and a shirt.  I have to talk to Sam today. I went back and changed into jogging clothes knowing Sam will go later. I qent and got eggs and bacon out and started makeing some. I grabbed three of pmates cups and forks. I put them on the table and finished cooking food. Sam came In and sat down not even saying a word. "Can I talk to you later?" He looked at me. "Sure." Dean came in and sat down. I put the food on plates and sat them on the table and the boys dug in. I poured a cup of milk for all of us. We sat and quietly enjoyed our breakfast. It was wierd but tollerateable.

A/N~ ok so I'm just wondering who wants Corn= Courtney&Dean or Soy= Sam&Courtney
Vote! ! :) hope you enjoy. Jk jk haha its Deaney (sounds like beanie, rhymes) or Satney (sounds like satton but with ney at end)? Idk. If you have suggestion I give you credit.  I have no clue. Haha.  Comment below who you want. I will debate and see. Peace out!