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My Absence Explained

I'm here to explain my absence on a lot of my social media, this site included.

I'm planning to upload this on my Twitter and Google+ later today or it may be out before I have this chapter up.

I live near Orlando, and with the events of Cristina Grimmie(sorry if I spelled the name wrong) and the shootings at the Night Club, I've been scared to leave my home.

On my YouTube, I've gotten numerous replies to comments I've posted years ago telling me to kill myself and that I'm both fucking shit and cancer. I know I shouldn't take those comments seriously since it's the Internet and those comments are posted all the time, but they don't know that I'm diagnosed with anxiety, I am always stressed, and I'm waiting to be tested about depression. Not to mention the numerous amount of hate I've gotten on iFunny, which made me leave the iFunny community for good.

The only reason I'm becoming public about this is because of I Hate Everything's newest video about his anxiety.

I've been to 7 different schools, and I've lied to them all about my personality besides one(you all know who you are).

I've acted cheerful and bubbly, but I'm really just dreadful and done with everything.

I'm sick of a lot of things, and the only thing that's helped me is YouTube.

I've been extremely nervous about the tiniest things and I feel extremely lonely all the time.

My parents have been arguing every morning for at least a week.

My anxiety has been burrowing up inside of me and I don't have anyone to talk to about it.

Instead of having a nice summer, I've been in my house. I barely left, and when I did it was to swim in my pool and go to my friend Brooke's house.

I recently had a panic attack, and I was underwater while it was happening. My Mom had to drag me to my room while I layed on my bed and cried. My summer isn't going too well and I'm scared.

My Step-Dad wants to move the family back to either Winter Garden or Orlando. And you know how scared I am about the second option.

I've lived in Orlando, and it's a beautiful place. But the events are scaring me. I don't want to transfer to another middle school for my 8th grade year. I'm done with everything.

If you want to help, please do. I'm going through hard times and I don't have my older brother to help me until tomorrow. I guess I'm just going to pre-write all of "The Days of Gabby," and publish them. But I don't wanna do that.