his thoughts are no longer gray but his hair is. his daughter is depressed because he refuses to have a conversation, yet he can't see this. she wishes he could. the angry side of her says he deserves to see his son graduate but the logical part asks why he should. but her logic is confused and so is she. maybe she just wishes someone tried, for the sake of them all being happy in life? and his thoughts are no longer gray but his smoke still is. he is no longer attached to sadness, but his daughter is. thats why he refuses to have a conversation and that's why sometimes her mother catches her crying. sometimes she just wishes no one existed so she wouldn't feel guilty. sometimes she wished she would've thought about moving. sometimes she wishes she could act on the hate she feels towards others but instead she hates herself. sometimes she wishes she could be mad at someone else instead of herself, but she can't. she is a coward, and thats exactly why theres scars on her hips, but the real scars are left on her mind. her thoughts are grey just like his hair is, she doesnt want to imagine a life without him. so she sobs hoping he'd hear and just know and just have a conversation with her, but that family, my family, is too well-known for selfish love. her smile is fake but at least her love isn't. as long as she overthinks she won't forget him. and by god she won't forget him, because that would be like forgetting herself. although judging by this, the only person she's forgetting is herself.
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PoezjaAnything and everything. Most of it is bad. I wrote most of it when I was like 12 and being abused or recovering from it lol
