Goals

SEVEN ~ Dimples of my Two Lovers

A/N The three guys up there(left hand side to right) are Shownu, Kihyun and Jooheon. As you can see, Kihyun has a smile that could light up a cave.

I decided to skip school on Monday. I didn't leave my room all weekend, and didn't talk to Flora at all. I didn't speak to Tina either, but that was pretty normal anyway. I went downstairs in the middle of the night and got food, before staying up all night crying over Jooheon while eating my feelings.

Flora understood my silent treatment and left the house without speaking to me. She left a note on my nightstand which said, 'Bye, Summer. I'm sorry.'

I told mom I wasn't feeling well, and made huge fuss over it, saying my throat hurt and everything was aching. She believed me, and I was left to rest. I almost punched Tina in the face when she came in my room this morning, all ditzy and dreamy, saying she had a great time with Jooheon the night before. How they did more than just kiss...

"Can you shut up?" I mumbled into my pillow, not daring to lift my head, knowing that she would see my tears if I got up. "I have a massive headache."

"You're just jealous that he loves me, not you," she said, doing her sixth layer of make up. It could have just been me, but I didn't think Jooheon would be shallow enough to like Tina. She had no brains, but plenty of beauty.

"I'm tired, not jealous," I said. My snot was piling on my pillow now. The pillow was crusty with dried up nose drippings from the night before, and although it was gross and uncomfortable, I didn't care.

Tina finally left, and I felt free to cry. Jake and Charlie were sent to my grandma's house so she could take care of them, like always. And I was here at home to rest. I took a nap because my head really was hurting from all the crying. I woke up at eleven in the morning to the sound of receiving messages.

'WHERE ARE YOU?'

'Summer?'

'Are you okay?'

'I left you a voicemail.'

'You'll be in school tomorrow, right?'

I ignored the texts, and didn't look for the voicemails. I went through social media instead. I read, I watched videos, I ate and I cried. That was about it. I had a relatively eventful Monday compared to going to school if you ask me.

When mom came home, I pretended to be asleep. I deleted Jooheon's number. I deleted all the screenshots of him I captured from his social media. I did everything a person does when they want to forget someone, and yet I felt like I was pulling myself apart, limb from limb. I wasn't happy that this is what I was feeling for someone who I didn't have a chance with.

"Summer, are you feeling better?" It was Flora back from school. She sounded sad and scared. But I didn't try and make it better. I still acted asleep. I didn't want to go to school the next day.

"Mom," I called in the most hoarse voice I could muster. "I still feel really bad." The only reason she let me stay home again if I was seriously sick was because I hadn't missed a day of school in the past year.

I saw Jooheon's black car pull into the driveway, and a sudden swarm of butterflies filled my stomach. I convinced myself he was here for Tina. For another good night of having his needs being fulfilled. Another night of not remembering I existed.

But five minutes after he left his car to our house, mom came knocking. "Babe, Jooheon's here to give you the school work you missed. Can I let him in?" I mumbled a no, and heard the bedroom door closing. I was in my colorful man boxers I used for pajamas and a grey shirt.