Never ending knots

Chapter 4

Derrick in MM
"Ringggggggggg, ringgggggg******
The sound of my phone filled my quiet lifeless room... I've cut everyone and everything out of my life and and I've been getting calls back to from Annie to job offering and more .... I just couldn't find the strength enough to talk and open up to anybody and my way to cope with all this was to cut out everything ..
Today is my BestFriend wedding day and I feel oh so bad about leaving her to deal with it all alone but I could no longer look out for everybody else I no longer had it in me ... I just wanted to be left alone .
I got up out of bed and decided to check my phone for the first time and i had over 100 missed calls and text messages/ emails ...I went to check my messages from my best friend ..
"Hi Alina I'm just checking on you ...I haven't heard from you in weeks since you left the hospital ...I'm getting worried can you please give me a call back asap!?" The message reads
I scrolled down to a unknown number
"Alina i know you don't ever want to talk to me again after what I've done but I just wanted to clear the air and let our past be the past I realize that i am in love with Annie and I won't to be the best man I can be for her but i can't do that without closure and I promise to never come at you again like I have been before ." Reading this message was a heartbreak along with a breathe of fresh air due to that fact that I wanted the best for my BestFriend and I don't wanna be caught up in Derrick shii any much longer ...but then again I still love him and I'm not lie being with him always made me feel alive again..I just get this feeling EveryTime I'm with him.
Ding***
My phone started to buzz
"Alina i know your reading this you still have your iMessage on please call me I want to talk you ...I promise to leave you alone after his"
I debating on calling him or not for almost 40mins before I decided ..something in me wanted to hear his voice once more .
I picked up the phone and dialed his number , and he Answered on the second ring
"Hello Alina? " he questioned
"Yes what is it Derrick " I said with a sigh
"I um was worried about you ,I just really needed to talk to you about somethings "
"Derrick we can talk later your wedding is today you should be getting ready for that !" I exclaimed
"I know hat but I just need to let you know that me and Annie is moving out to Los Angeles I got drafted and I just needed you to know that I won't nothing to do with you ever I don't want Annie to see you anymore we just need to start off our new life in peace.. I want us to be happy and we need to leave behind past mistakes and problems which includes you " I've already place a restraining order on you for me and Annie she doesn't know and I plan on keep it that way so that's all I -"
"No no !" I said cutting him off "you can't do that!" I said allowing tears to roll down my face , I couldn't believe he just threw this on me like this and made me out to be the bad guy ..when he was mainly the reasoning for all this !
"Sorry Alina it's already done , If you come to the wedding today you can say your goodbyes and wish us luck but that's the last I want to see of you" he said almost hanging up
"Wait wait Derrick !" I yelled even though this should be good news to me due to the fact hat I didn't want to be around anyone in the first place it wasn't near good news to me ....I was planning on opening back up to my BestFriend and starting over I wasn't planning on doing this all alone and now from hearing this I knew I was going to be.
"What Alina " Derrick said breaking me out of my thoughts
"I'm pregnant " I cried out forcing more tears to escape
"What that suppose to mean Ian the father I strapped up I handle my business !" He semi yelled I could tell he was getting angry
"Your the only man I've been with Derrick I've never been with no one other than you !"
"And I'm suppose to believe that , man you phony just accept the fact that me and Annie is happy and moving on stop being crazy and selfish have a nice life !" He yelled while hanging up and leaving me in deep thought! I was braking down slowly . I threw my phone at the way and went out of control. Everything that was in hands reach went flying everywhere. "What am I going to do !" I cried out "I have no money no job ..NOTHING! .. I slide down the wall and cuffed my face in to my knees and let out silently cries I'm left with nothing which was my biggest fear !

This chapter was kind of short but you know it's ok I have more to come!!!!! And a whole lot of tea to spill can't wait !!
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