The will of a depression

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Have you ever had to get through a day, smiling at people, talking and acting like everything were normal and completely fine, while all the time you felt like you were carrying a leaden weight of unhappiness inside you? Because I had, every day was a day like this. Every day I woke up again, sad enough. Every day when I was staring in the mirror tears were streaming down my face, every morning I felt the pain along with the hate when I looked in the mirror. The hardest thing was, I had no reason to have a major depression. I had some lovely parents who did everything to make me happy and I had a few lovely friends and that was the most, but still I felt so extremely sad. This was my life day in day out half a year ago, before I met him.