"Your Still The One?" A Liam Fanfic Sequel to "Nobody Compares" by EB

Chapter 11

            WARNING!    This chapter holds some deep dark secrets from my fiction character of "Liam ", "Harry, "Danielle", and "Sam" who shall not be related or affiliated  to the real people. It does not represent in any shape way or form! This is just a fiction story with fiction characters with fiction storylines!!!  Now there will be some serious "substance usage reference" so if your uncomfortable skip this chapter though it explains a lot about what is happening in the story. But like I said this is just fictional character, fictional storylines, and are NOT RELATED or AFFILIATED in anyway to One Direction, family, friends, or management!

With that being said if you love this chapter please VOTE & comment! -EB xx :)

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Liam's POV:

            I must be damned how come I always want to make things right, they always come back to me but bite me in the ass. I love this girl why can't she see it, she is my world she is my everything. How else can I let her now? She asking for your honesty and you won't give it to her because your an ass I tell myself.

            My flashbacks go back to when I first lied to her about kissing back Danielle. Fly all the way to her to break things off but I back down and I lie to her instead. Then we fix things up and here comes Sam to mess everything up. Instead of just telling her the whole truth right now all I want to really do  is run, it seems like I always take the easy way out. I don't want to hurt her but I'm so embarrassed by this that if I tell her I'm afraid she will leave me. Does that even make any sense?

            "NO! No I'll tell you everything" I say and she deserves to know everything! I take a huge sigh before I decide where to even start. Believe me its a mess! I shake my head not believing that I'm even in this position. But maybe if I would have been smarter about my choices I wouldn't so much damn baggage to worry about.

            "I ..I want you to know that this was before I even met you"

            I just stare at her as she looks at me impassively. In her eyes I can only see sadness and I'm in charge of those tears and whether they become a smile later on I hardly doubt it. How can I keep hurting her like this?  I can't take this anymore! I take in another deep breath and exhale and continue.  Flashbacks hit my mind like it was yesterday.

            " When Danielle broke up with me I fell and I fell deep. In a place so dark I never thought I would even get out of. I started hanging out with the wrong crowd. And I started getting into places that I shouldn't have step foot in the first place. My family started to get worried because I wouldn't show up not even to work. This caused a lot of problems with management and the band. They thought it was Harry's fault because he would take me out quite often with his other friends to party in the town. He knew that if I would stay in my room I would ended up being more depressed so we would go out and have "fun"." I pause.

            "Are you sure you want to know?"

            "Please I need to" she says and she clasps my hands within hers tightening her hold reassuring me that she's there for me. I shake my head and another sigh falls out before I keep going.

            " So anyways that's when I started drinking even knowing that it could affect my health. I thought if I can't be with the person I truly thought I loved, then I didn't care about living anymore. I wanted to be dead.. bury six feet under dead."