This is Me

Wants

I want it to hurt more than it does

To cut deeper than it does

I want it to leave scars so

Deep they mimic the cracks

in my heart,

the holes in my soul.

I want to feel something

Beyond the numbness I’ve put myself in

Lost myself in

I want to lose this battle

I want the pain of defeat.

Although it stings, cuts, screams

with agony

to take me from the battlefield

To put me in the ground.

It hurts too much to stay

But even more to go.

So I’m stuck in the middle, numb

with emotion

And all I want

is out.