Rise

Chapter 19

I'm infuriated.

Jessica has mentioned several times she doesn't like Harry and wants nothing to do with him.

But that was exactly me.

I didn't like him, and then I fell into his fucking trap.

I'm apart of Harry's little scheme.

He probably lured Jessica into his pants by telling her sweet things and touching her-

Oh god no.

I'm nothing but Harry's little toy and I actually thought he liked me.

I feel sick, just the thought of him even kissing Jessica makes me want to puke.

Harry would never sleep with Jessica, he knows that I would break every bone in his body if he tried making a move on her.

At least I thought Harry wouldn't do any of that.

I don't even know him anymore.

Jessica even knows that if she did anything with him I'd flip shit.

A part of me is thinking Harry is joking around just to push my buttons, but it all adds up.

Jessica acting all weird in the car to the shop, her freaking out when she figured out about Harry and I.

I hate this.

I want to hunt Harry down and yell at him.

I want to yell at Jessica.

How fucking could they?

I don't even care how Harry has made me feel in the past few days, he did her and he can't change it.

I know he's slept with other girls before but this is different.

This is Jessica.

Harry always has his stupid plots and maybe he doesn't even like me and only wants in my pants.

For a second I actually believed I loved the stupid boy I've known for six years.

I know it's stupid of me to be thinking these things since me and Harry had nothing going on when he slept with Jess. I just wish it didn't happen, out of all people to do this it's my best fucking friend and boyfriend.

At least I think he's still my boyfriend.

Harry starts spamming my phone when I don't reply.

I call him to get answers.

Two rings.

"Ella babe-"

"Harry." I say with my jaw clenched, trying my best to not tell him off.

"I'm sorry okay? We were at a party and it just happened please don't hate me."

I remember when Jessica asked me to go to the party with her and i declined her offer.

I can't help but feel like it's my fault this happened, if I had went then they wouldn't have fucked another.

Oh my god I should've gone.

"Ella? Are you there? El-"

"What?" I snap.

I can barely hear Harry's voice because of loud music and people chanting in the background.

He's not out shopping for furniture.

He's at damn party, plus it's so early.

I hang up on him.

He sleeps with my best friend and then lies to me, after all that's happened.

Partying is what got him with Jessica and thats mainly how he gets laid.

I would track him if I could and drive him back here but I don't even want to talk to him. Or see him.

I hate how I'm blaming most of this on him.

Maybe I should be upset with Jessica since I knew she wouldn't do this.

I am upset with Jessica.

What if she wasn't even in Washington D.C. like she said she was, what if she was with Harry?

I shut my phone off so I don't have to deal with calls and pointless texts from them.

There's no explanation for this, I don't care if they weren't thinking, I don't care if they were drunk, I just don't care.

I wont let them get away with this.

Shit. That's how I feel. Like shit.

Harry used to mean a lot to me years ago and Jessica knows that.

Harry even knows that.

The first time I let myself date it ends up getting thrown in the trash.

I may be overreacting, but they know better.

I bet Harry will come back here and yell about how me and him weren't even dating at that time and how it doesn't matter.

But it does matter.

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I dial her number about six, seven times?

All of them go straight to voicemail.

Hell, I can't believe I made the stupid decision and slept with Jessica.

I know I did the best by telling Ella first but maybe it's too soon, we just started the whole dating process.

If I had kept it a secret for a month or two we'd be more attached to another that it wouldn't even be a big deal.

I should've fucking waited.

I don't know why I agreed to go to this stupid party with Zayn and Louis.

They're both too nice I can't let them down, plus they've been on my side when things went to shit in the past.

I should've stayed home with Ella.

We could've watched TV as I played with her hair and let her lay on my chest.

That'd be much better than this stupid party.

Zayn and Louis don't really do what everyone else does, which is drink.

They like talking to people and hooking up with a girl or two.

Their games not mine.

I only hooked up with one girl at a party, which is Jessica.

God I hate her, she lures people in with her body and words.

I bet Ella thinks this is all my fault, I wouldn't be surprised if she did.

I even mentioned Ella to Jessica and she just shook her head laughing.

I don't think she's a good friend for Ella.

But it'd suck to see Ella have no friends.

Then again, I'm not a very good boyfriend for her.

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