The Depths Of Love I Yearn (Jasmine Centina)

6 | Bianca Rogers

It's been hours since Jaydah left my house. I've been crying ever since she left. I know I was stupid for what I did and Jaydah was completely right when she told me being drunk wasn't an excuse for me to cheat on her.  The thing is, being raped isn't really cheating. Truth be told, I was scared of what she would think of me. Even though I'm a girl, I felt like all of the masculinity left me.

I could've had sense enough to tell the dude to get off of me. Thing is, it didn't go as far as I thought it would've. He stuck his long fingers inside of me. I've never liked the idea of someone sticking their fingers inside of me, so I've never let anyone do it to me.

Seeing how hurt Jaydah was when I told her somewhat a lie, it made me hurt on the inside. In my heart, I knew I should've just told her the truth no matter the outcome, but something inside of me just wouldn't let me tell her. When she walked out of my house, I felt like she took my heart right along with her. I tried calling her, but her phone kept going straight to voicemail, so I eventually gave up.

My phone that was next to me on my bed started ringing. I picked it up and answered it, in hopes that it was Jaydah returning my calls.

"Hello? Jaydah?" I asked swiftly.

"Nah bro, this is Jasmine. Where are you? Everybody has been trying to call you for the past thirty minutes." Jasmine spoke through the phone.

"What are you talking about? I'm at home." I said furrowing my eyebrows together. I had no idea what was going on.

"Dude, Jaydah is in the hospital. Why aren't you here? You didn't know?"

"Uh.. No obviously." I said with an attitude.

"Okay look there's no time for your unneeded attitude, just get to the hospital downtown." Jaydah said. Before I could say anything else, she hung up the phone. I quickly slipped on my hoodie, along with a hat and I wrapped a scarf around my neck. I slipped on some shoes, and dashed out of my bedroom, and down the stairs. My mom had left a little while ago to meet up with my dad.

I grabbed my car keys, and walked out of the house. After locking the door to the house, I got in my car and peeled out of the driveway. A million thoughts racked my brain as I thought about what happened to Jaydah.

After another thirty minutes of driving and running red lights, I had finally made it the hospital. I found a parking space, and parked the car. I got out, and headed towards the entrance of the hospital. I looked around looking for Jasmine. I spotted her sitting in the corner along with Dajsha and Jaydah's mom. I quickly walked over to them, in hopes of finding out answers.

"What happened to Jaydah? Is she okay?" I spoke all at once as I approached them.

"Jaydah got into a car accident on the road near your house. She's been back there for two hours. Nobody has came out to tell us anything." Jaydah's mom spoke. I sat down next to her, and I put my head in my hands.

"This is all my fault." I mumbled to myself.

"It's not your fault Bianca. Don't say that. Somebody else hit her, not you." Her mom spoke rubbing my back. I shook my head no.

"It is my fault. It could've been prevented." I said looking at her with warms tears prickling down my cheeks.

"How?"