Normalacy

Miriam's bit

Ok so I've broken in, or stolen Lotties phone or thoughts or whatever this story is, which I am loving so far btw. I am Miriam, the self proclaimed 'gayest straight girl' like literally EVER. I mean I'm attracted to guys because guys and damn but also damn girls, I mean who wouldn't?

Anyway, to the day, normal as ever... Not. I agree with Lottie for once. Being normal is bullshit. No one can possibly be considered normal or we'd all be exactly the same.

So... To the day. I walked into the Tech room in the morning and my eyes went straight to Eleanor, in her absurdly yellow rain coat, which suits her in a brilliant way. My mind snaps straight into Game of Thrones mode, longing to discuss the recent episode that I spent over 3 hours trying to watch because of my crappy internet, which was so worth it, I mean the ending. In my haste to get her I almost trip over around 7 pairs of feet... And then I see her... bæ. Don't get me wrong I'm 'straight' but that girl has a very special place in my heart, friendship wise. Unfortunately she has a boyfriend, who is very 'real' whatever Lottie says, and tall, and nice enough. They say I don't like him but I actually do, he's cool and she loves him so... I almost get over to her before the bell goes and I have to turn around and face my impending doom in tutor.

11:00

It's only in science I realise Izzy isn't in. My smut buddy is not here to discuss said smut. I also learn from Lottie that Alexis isn't here again, small wonder seeing as we have PE and she hasn't been off yet this week. I feel bad for her sometimes, when she's off with cramps. I get cramps too, I'm the only other one in the group that does, or used to. Mine stopped a few cycles ago which I think has something to do with my diet. Either way, I've been there and its shit. However in her absence Lottie is happier, lighter, not so guarded and not so condescending, more accepting, which is great. Can you tell I get distracted alot? Cos I really do.

1:20

You're so fickle. I whisper the mantra to myself as I walk, seemingly confidently, to lunch. I have to eat something, I'm so hungry. Anyway. Fickle. I don't mean in a decision way, although maybe I am. I mean in an attraction way. One minute I hate this guy, then I like him, then I'm not so sure, then another guy or even a guy I've liked before comes along and damn. I need to sort my brain out because they're all worthless crushes because let's be honest who would want me.

2:30

I count the seconds away during my lessons, until the end of the day. I see Leo leave at some point, to the 'dentists'.I spend alot of time with Erin and Lottie who I would ship like crazy if it weren't for the fact that they're too good friends, they are extremely cute though. Emily is with Leo before Leo leaves but then is with Amy C and Eleanor rolling around on the floor while I use the innocent child act to talk to Daniel and get educated on what a daddy kink actually is.... Yup.

4:00

I think Lottie will be back soon, I've given back her phone.
I feel like I've gone on about my self alot
I'm sorry I'm not selfless. I'm only in my own wayward head.
So you will hear more soon.
Miriam