Grade A Lovers ( Cleaning )

A Lesson in Depression

Yuu's POV

The next morning, Yuu woke up with a slight pain in his chest. There was a heavy weight there, almost as if someone had punched him. He laid staring at the ceiling with a blank expression.

Tears steadily rolled down Yuu's cheeks as he just sat. All of this was surreal. He made the mistake of kissing Mika, and now he didn't know what to do.

Mikaela was his teacher. It wasn't right to kiss your teacher, or to want to feel his hands roaming every part of your body until-

That was it... What was going to happen now? Was Mika going to want the same thing he did? Or was all of this just in his head?
Mika couldn't really be in love with him as well, He knew that. Well, Did he?

Suddenly there was a knock.

"Yuu..." A familiar voice called out. Yuu cringed a bit at the name. 'Mika..' He thought as he heard a soft, yet sleepy sigh. "Please open the door..." Mika said. Yuu stayed still for a moment before wiping his tears.

The raven stared at the door. If he walked up to the door and opened it, then what? What would happen?

He decided to just let the blonde wait.

After a few minutes, he heard another soft rap on his door, followed by a sniffle. Had Mika been crying?

He pulled the pillow over his head to drown out Mika's voice. But it haunted him, hurt him.

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These feelings shouldn't be real. The feeling of utter uselessness. No matter how many times you try and make it right, it still goes right back to where everything went wrong.

How can you fix a problem like that?

Yuu never had felt something like this before. He hated the feeling, but he couldn't shake it. He could only feel the overwhelming torture from his emotions swirling in his head, chest, and being.

It was as if nothing about him mattered anymore.

But did it? Did anything he did matter anymore?

Nothing felt okay. Kissing Mika wasn't okay. Falling in love wasn't okay. Being himself wasn't okay. Being alive wasn't okay.

Or at least.. that's the way he felt.

It was around 2:30 now, and he knew Mikaela would be returning from work soon. He didn't know how things would go, how anything would go. He just knew he would have to do something. He decided to drag himself upstairs, sit down on the couch, and just think. How could he make things right again?

The time passed slowly until he heard the soft crunching of gravel under the tires of Mika's car approaching. His attention turned to the door, which not too long after, the blonde walked through. Yuu felt a sinking pain in his chest when he saw Mika's crystal blue eyes.

"Yuu, you're awake." He muttered in a faint voice. All Yuu could do was nod.

He didn't know what to do.

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Okay, sorry this is so short.. But I've gotta get back into this thing
I'm so sorry to keep you waiting, so here, a little filler chapter/vent for me