ASLEEP // A DOVE AND RYAN FAN FICTION.

Chapter 5// Hurting someone you love.

RYAN'S POV:

I felt her presents. I felt her fingers running across my chest, her hands in my hair.

Every one of her kisses stayed on my lips.

I heard her beautiful voice singing.

"I'd sing arcapella in the rain...let the whole world think i'v gone insane.."Then i felt her hot tears drip onto my chest.

"Give you..a..all my mu..mu..money and m..my name..nothing i..wouldn't do..nothing..i..i..wouldn't do..." She sang, her voice breaking every so often as she let out a small sob.

I just wanted to hold her. Dry her tears..

"When i'm crazy..and..and i don't know why..would you calm me down..and read my..mind..would you still send shivers up my spine...nothing..nothing i wouldn't do..nothing..i.i.i...i...wouldn't..do"

I hated myself. I hated myself for doing this. I hated myself for being in a hostpital bed unconcious. Scaring her. Making her upset...ruining her life.

"We..we..could beee...we...could be anything tonight..just tell me everything you like...can't..ca..can't you seee, we could be something..if...we tried..just...just tell me how..to..to make you mine.."

I wanted to join in. Sing with her.

"What have i gotta do..to make you..what..ha..have i got to do to make you..what..have..i gotta do..to..to make you...please...please...st..stayyyyy.."

I felt tears well up inside of me. I wasn't going anywhere..but..but i was still hooked up to a life support machine..i could have been dying..i didn't know..

She stopped singing after that. She just lay her head on my neck and cried. Like a window my heart cracked. It broke into millions of pieces.

I had always been able to make her feel better..to stop her from crying. But i couldn't do ANYTHING!

I wanted to scream out her name.

DOVE'S POV:

I could feel Ryan twitching beneath me.

His hand was moving. It was gripping tightly onto mine, his nails were digging into my skin. I tried to pull away but he was too strong.

"Ryan! Stop it!"I screached.

Someone must have heard me because a young nurse came running in. She unclasped Ryan's hand from mine and put my hand under cold water.

It was bright red.

"Why did he do that?"I asked, wincing as she poked the tiny cuts on my hands with a cold towel.

"He must have been trying to stop you from crying..trying to get your attention.."She said, inspecting my hand.

"So..he could hear me?!"I asked, smiling slightly.

"I guess so...i don't think that he's completely unconscious..maybe semi..if he can hear you he might be on the road to recovery!"She said, happiness in her voice.

"Oh my god..if..if he gets well again..i won't be able to repay you.."I said, wiping another tear from my eye.

"If you don't mind me asking..why...was he going so fast?..if you know of course!" She asked, patting my shoulder.

"Um...well...he was away signing autographs.."I sniffed. "I had just found out..i was pregnant..."She smiled. "Congratulations!"

I nodded "And um..i rang him...i told him..to come home quick..and..now.."I stuttered. "You think it's your fault he's like this?"She asked, raising her eyebrows. 

I nodded sadly. "Hey! No! DON'T THINK THAT! IT IS NOT your fault! I'v known you about 5 minutes..but...i can tell..your a really nice girl...and you don't deserve to think like that!" She said, taking my hand.

"Thanks..but..it is my fault...If i hadn't hurried him..maybe he would be in a real bed..next to me..not..not in a horrible hospital.."I cried.

I lay my head on the table in front of me.

She patted my back,then left the room because someone was calling her name.

So..Ryan might have been getting better...I was still so heartbroken to see him like that..but i now felt hope inside of me.

I decided to go home.

I needed to sleep properly for once.

So i found one of Ryan's biggest shirts, and lay in our bed, staring at the ceiling.

Eventually i closed my eyes, and i dreamt of waking up to a call from the hospital, saying that Ryan had finally woke up.

I knew he would one day..i just had to be patient and try not to cry.

It would be hard. But i would make it.