Chapter 20// regretful choices.

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Dove's POV:

When I woke up, I looked over at my clock.
It was only 9pm.
Ryan was beside me, his head buried in the pillow.
I decided to get up.
I wanted something to drink, but instead of just getting myself a glass of tap water, I grabbed a chair, and pushed it up against the counter.
I climbed on the chair, and reached for Ryan's cupboard.
It was his cupboard because it had all his drinks in it.
All his beer etc:
I took a 6 pack, closed the door slowly, and got off the chair.
I sat on the couch and chugged down a can of beer.
I didn't know what I was doing.
Drinking when pregnant was stupid as hell, but I didn't care, I was doing it.
I drank another 2 cans, threw up, then drank a forth.
I couldn't stop.
I was so mad.
That bitch was right, it was a slutty move getting pregnant. My fans were lying..all them congratulations..ha..not real..
I forced the 5th and 6th down, threw up again, then searched for Ryan's tequila.
I filled a flask with it.
I then opened my closet slowly, trying not to make a sound and wake Ryan up, and pulled out a short red dress.
I was drunk. I knew i was.
I set a group chat up and texted Jess, Emmy, Shelby, Victoria, and Aubrey, I asked them to pick me up and said that we should go clubbing.
I lied to them and told them Ryan had told me to have some fun.
They all looked a bit suspicious, but they agreed with me, I wasn't known for lying after all.
We got to the club.
We partied for awhile, I got even more drunk.
I drank my flask dry.
I took a few shots of some really strong alcohol.
Jess told me that I needed to go home.
The girls knew I was pregnant, they knew I wanted some fun, but of course, being the good friends they are, they tried to get me to leave.
I just shook my head.
In the end they just gave up trying to help me and left.
I stayed sat at the bar.

A tall blonde guy walked up to me and sat beside me.
"Hey, you okay!?" He asked.
He had obviously seen my engagement ring because he got up to leave.
I shook my head and pulled him back down.
"Hey! Just cause I'm engaged don't mean I can't have some fun!" I slurred.

He nodded. "What kind of fun?"

Later that night..

I tangled my hands in his hair.
He was kissing me roughly.
"You wanna get outta here!?" He whispered in my ear, making me blush.
I nodded as he grabbed my hand and lead my out of the club.
Next thing I knew we were back at my house.
"Key?" He asked, holding his hand out.
He was also drunk. Otherwise he wouldn't have done anything.
I threw him the keys.
I wrapped my legs around his waist as we kissed.
He took me inside and dropped me on the couch.
I tore off his shirt.
I kissed his neck and stroked his rippling chest.
"Ryan I.."I began.
But he interrupted me.
"It's Charlie.." He murmured, kissing my neck.
Suddenly reality hit me.
"Stop! Stop!" I mumbled, pushing him off of me.
"What's wrong?" He asked, sitting up.
"I just..I can't do this..this was a huge mistake..you need to leave...
you know I have a.."but someone finished the sentence for me.
"Fiancé"
It was Ryan.
He was standing there, his hair messed up, and his eyes full of tears.
"Shit.."Charlie whispered to himself.
"Ry I can explain.." I began.
He just shook his head.
"You, get out of our house!" He yelled, pointing at Charlie who didn't take any Chances, grabbed his coat, and ran out the house.
"Ryan.."but he just ignored me and left me sat on the couch.
My hair and my lipstick was messed up.
So was my mind.
So was my heart
I just cried.
Cried.
And cried.

Ryan's POV:

I didn't know what to do. I just sat on my bed with my head in my hands.
Chloe was the only girl who had never broken my heart..until now..
I wanted to talk to her..but I had so much anger inside of me I would have just ended up shouting at her.
And that wouldn't do any good.
So I just decided to go to sleep.
Maybe when I woke up it would just be a nightmare.
Maybe..

Sorry about this chapter, it broke my heart to write this 😢 Ik this would never happen in real life but ya know, in my view this was getting a bit boring.
I did write a more heartbreaking version of this but I deleted it because I couldn't publish it ( my choice ) it just 😭 SORRY about the kind of cliffehanger!? I promise I'll make the next chapter happier ( kind of atleast )

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