Like Sheaves Of Corn (#Wattys2016)

Sowing: Anger

Diary you won't believe what happened to me at school today. I don't think I've ever been this pissed off in my entire life! It was embarrassing and humiliating.

Let me start at the beginning:

So I got to school as usual, everything was going ordinarily until lunch. But now that I think about it, there was tension in the air. I felt like everyone was in on a plan I had no clue about.

So at lunch, Ruth walks up to me and pushes me, like what the fudge?

She then starts poking my shoulder with her skinny index finger over and over again asking me where I get off trying to steal her man.

Like really? Me trying to steal her man? You and I know more than anybody that Kit has been after me for a while now.

Diary I'm not very good with confrontations and I don't want to lie and say that I was not scared. I had never been in a fight before and I wasn't planning on starting that habit now.

I flicked her hand away and told her to stop poking me. I am not a fighter but I'd be damned if some chick walked all over me.

She had her hands on her hips and she was coming real close to me and telling me to get "my ass" away from her man, that he was taken and I should not be jealous of their happy relationship.

Like lol diary, really? Their happy relationship? Lol

So anyway, all my friends were looking so I was not about to let her talk to me like that.

"Who told you that I want your so called man?" I asked.

That's when I found out that damn Mavis snitched on me. I had been wondering why she was standing behind Ruth all this time. I felt so betrayed and made a mental note to deal with her later.

I didn't know what to say because I didn't know how much Ruth knew. I denied wanting Kit and told Ruth that there was nothing going on between him and I.

She called me a liar, man stealing whore and a bitch and that's when I snapped. I slapped her and pulled her hair hard. I don't know why I was so angry because I usually brush things off very easily and I knew that all the things she was saying were lies.

The rest of the details are blurry. Next thing I remember was people pulling us apart, Ruth shouting more profanities at me and Kit walking into the class.

He asked what was going on and Ruth told him to tell me to stay away from him. We were both gasping for breath and at that moment all I wanted was for Kit to tell her that he didn't love her. I had been the one who was trying to save her from getting hurt but now she was just asking for it.

Kit turned toward me and without even blinking, told me to stay away from him. He said he was in a happy relationship and didn't need all this drama.

I don't know why I'm crying right now, I'm not sure if it is the embarrassment I felt at that moment or the sense of betrayal I felt from Mavis and Kit or if this is what heart break feels like.

Now I know how Jesus felt like when Peter denied him...I wanted to fade away, to disappear, to die and never come back because resurrection would mean I'd have to face the people that had betrayed me. Jesus was a better man.

I haven't said a word since then. Karen tried to cheer me up but I couldn't get over Ruth's smug face or Kit's straight one when he lied through his teeth or everyone else's disapproving ones.

I hate them, all of them. Ruth, Mavis, Kit...Mom, Dad.